But they keep haunting my dreams. Dreaming of them apologizing and holding me in their arms. Why can't this unconscious torment just stop. I spent so much time chasing them, staying with them through every horrible thing they felt no matter how much they devalued themselves, myself and other friends all trying to support them and make them see how loved they were, despite how they most often wouldn't return that kindness. They wanted the comforts of and fun times of deep companionship without having to give it in return. And they chase the high of new and exciting relationships while leaving the old ones behind.

I'm really done chasing them. Why can't my broken heart just let me rest and stop teasing me with impossible fantasies, they are gone and it should stay that way. I'd like the torment to stop