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2 years ago
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COMMISSION PRICES CAN BE FOUND IN MY COMMISSIONS TAB!
I wish I was joking but honestly, things have been really bad since Jan. So here's a sobstory - ignore if you just really don't care.
So in November my Ex and I ended our relationship and I have been seeing Plasma in that time. At the same time, I have been living as a house mate with my ex as we literally moved to a new let (renting) in October, because I thought maybe we could stick it out a few months so Im less of a bitch to have him pay the rent and bills alone for most of the tennancy, plus I didnt really have anywhere to go at that point either. It's honestly not been great, Ive been in states of depression being "stuck" here, I'm sleeping on the sofa and it often feels like I'm walking on eggshells in this house.
The hardest part though, I never realised how much financial support my ex actually was when it came to the most basic of things like sharing the shopping. Now let me point out that I am on a £17k full time salary that ive been suspect has been under the UK minium wage for some time (only just got told i get a proper pay rise today from next week) but its been a very difficult one to bring up, so ive just tried to carry on. Because of this, and having to pay my half of rent and bills, it's got to the point where I just completely run out of money by the 3rd week of the month. Ive cancelled all my subscriptions I had earlier in the year, ive started taking the bus and ive now got a Tesco clubcard set up to try and help the food shop..... but its still not enough. My ex is on a wage thats about 3 times greater than mine, heck even more, but I no longer can go to him for emergency cash help like this. Ive even drained my savings just trying to live my normal life. *sigh*
"wheres your remaining money gone?" I hear you say? and of course I expect to be called a stupid girl with my priorities all wrong and that I dont know what its like to live in poverty. My remaining money has been going towards travel to work (its been £10 a day almost to park at my work hence why I finally got over my anxiety and started trying the busses...even though now im very much at risk of being hit by a car because of our bullshit local bus stop layout), to keep myself from going insane and mentally unstable I have spent a lot of time staying with Plas, who is pretty much on the other side of the country to me at a 3 hour drive its up to £50 a full tank of petrol for my little car to do the full journey to and back. And then finally the excess is spent on food shop, the occasional "stave the depression off" take out treat or merch purchase. So again, feel free to yell at me about priorities and being weak willed/wasting money.
The other thing myself and a lot of artist friends have noticed is that for the UK clients, the cost of living crisis is affecting our commission sales greatly, but that shouldnt be so bad from international audience and orders, but we think the algorithms are royally screwing us over on socials. Heck I even find FA quiet these days. Normally a handful of commissions would be enough to keep me going to the end of the month (payday) but in all honesty, Ive had 2 serious commission orders this month that were not my quickie discounted ones. Im seriously considering going as low as £5 for some just to get enough to take the bus and get things like eggs and bread ffs.
I feel like such a first world problem whiney bitch that I've had trouble accepting help from my friends and even my family dont really know about the money issue. Taking any form of commission feels moraly better for me coz I can at least provide a service in return. And of course any commission orders are just saving my life atm and greatly appreciated that i wish i could offer more with my artwork.
This is gonna continue to be a problem for a little bit longer, I have to hold out until the end of June, things will be easier, theyll be better and theyll be happier.
So in November my Ex and I ended our relationship and I have been seeing Plasma in that time. At the same time, I have been living as a house mate with my ex as we literally moved to a new let (renting) in October, because I thought maybe we could stick it out a few months so Im less of a bitch to have him pay the rent and bills alone for most of the tennancy, plus I didnt really have anywhere to go at that point either. It's honestly not been great, Ive been in states of depression being "stuck" here, I'm sleeping on the sofa and it often feels like I'm walking on eggshells in this house.
The hardest part though, I never realised how much financial support my ex actually was when it came to the most basic of things like sharing the shopping. Now let me point out that I am on a £17k full time salary that ive been suspect has been under the UK minium wage for some time (only just got told i get a proper pay rise today from next week) but its been a very difficult one to bring up, so ive just tried to carry on. Because of this, and having to pay my half of rent and bills, it's got to the point where I just completely run out of money by the 3rd week of the month. Ive cancelled all my subscriptions I had earlier in the year, ive started taking the bus and ive now got a Tesco clubcard set up to try and help the food shop..... but its still not enough. My ex is on a wage thats about 3 times greater than mine, heck even more, but I no longer can go to him for emergency cash help like this. Ive even drained my savings just trying to live my normal life. *sigh*
"wheres your remaining money gone?" I hear you say? and of course I expect to be called a stupid girl with my priorities all wrong and that I dont know what its like to live in poverty. My remaining money has been going towards travel to work (its been £10 a day almost to park at my work hence why I finally got over my anxiety and started trying the busses...even though now im very much at risk of being hit by a car because of our bullshit local bus stop layout), to keep myself from going insane and mentally unstable I have spent a lot of time staying with Plas, who is pretty much on the other side of the country to me at a 3 hour drive its up to £50 a full tank of petrol for my little car to do the full journey to and back. And then finally the excess is spent on food shop, the occasional "stave the depression off" take out treat or merch purchase. So again, feel free to yell at me about priorities and being weak willed/wasting money.
The other thing myself and a lot of artist friends have noticed is that for the UK clients, the cost of living crisis is affecting our commission sales greatly, but that shouldnt be so bad from international audience and orders, but we think the algorithms are royally screwing us over on socials. Heck I even find FA quiet these days. Normally a handful of commissions would be enough to keep me going to the end of the month (payday) but in all honesty, Ive had 2 serious commission orders this month that were not my quickie discounted ones. Im seriously considering going as low as £5 for some just to get enough to take the bus and get things like eggs and bread ffs.
I feel like such a first world problem whiney bitch that I've had trouble accepting help from my friends and even my family dont really know about the money issue. Taking any form of commission feels moraly better for me coz I can at least provide a service in return. And of course any commission orders are just saving my life atm and greatly appreciated that i wish i could offer more with my artwork.
This is gonna continue to be a problem for a little bit longer, I have to hold out until the end of June, things will be easier, theyll be better and theyll be happier.
And I know very well myself how it feels to barely have any money for anything at all. I'm glad to not be in that situation anymore and instead capable to help others some in that regard.