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Yosh-E-O 2.0 Officially Active / The Baby Quack Is Back!
2 years ago
hOI!!!!!!
New journal to celebrate my long overdue return to being an actual part of the furry art community!
So what has been happening over the past few months? Rather than ‘Quack Quack Quack’ endlessly, I’ll simplify it with ultra-cool, numbered bullet point! *Wiggles and waddles in place while flapping and slapping his arms against his sides*
1: YOSH ON PATREON:
patreon.com/MatthewPalumbo
With my screen-reading software, which is what allows me to interact with all of you despite being 100% blind, being less able to work with most art / social networking sites, I have turned to ‘Patreon’ to allow me to work with my boyfriend & caretaker,
lucca. I write my creative post in an e-mail that Lucca posts to Patreon for everyone to enjoy who can spare $3 each month to help a RL ‘Lame Duck’ feel a sense of having a job. (After 15 years of being psychologically abused, silently discriminated against, and receiving false promises of aid to acquire and retain employment in both private and public organizations, I am turning to Patreon to spare myself from the ongoing, which should not be still happening, situation of being a company’s “First blind person to work there” who is rejected and/or forced out when it is discovered that what the employer “Thought was supposed to be made accessible for individuals with disabilities” is not.).
I am starting to learn how to respond, comment, and create polls on Patreon with Lucca’s help. Donations of more than $5 per month will be able to participate in special content where stories are made in ways that work best for both a person who is blind, like me, along with those who are not.
patreon.com/MatthewPalumbo
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2: SUBMISSION COMMENTS:[/b[
I’ve felt awful for how much I’ve fallen behind on replying, commenting, and interacting with all those posts you have all shared over the past few months. With my overall positivity coming back with full force, I have already begun to interact with over a dozen submissions from many moons ago. This will only continue as my most recent efforts towards fully accepting what I can and cannot do as a person who is blind become second nature instead of requiring active thought to do without feeling sad, lost, or less of what I had hoped to be prior to this effort to upgrade myself to [b]Yosh-E-O 2.0. (I’ve had no eyesight since December 2016, my right eye removed in 2019, and my left eye removed in November 2022. Despite all this, I have allowed myself to remain stuck in a state of believing I can vicariously / live through others those sighted experiences I am missing out on that, even with minimal eyesight, I could enjoy. As standard ‘Replacement Therapy’ had no effect, the Yosh-E-O 2.0 effort has been to work closely with Lucca to find new ways to feel happy and a part of the world that do not cause me to dwell on what was and could have been.).
3: STORY COMMISSIONS:
Being 100% honest, receiving a 7 day suspension and being hit with a ‘Level 4 Violation’ of FA’s AUP after nearly 15 years of posting material killed my creative motivation. Fortunately, the Yosh-E-O 2.0 effort has got me feeling filled with determination to return to writing. However, to be safe, I will be keeping stories that I make that could be viewed incorrectly by those who assume over understand exclusive to those who commission me and those who are willing to subscribe to above the $3 support level on the Patreon page that Lucca is assisting me with.
Currently, I have 2 commissions that are yet to be completed. One shall be finished within the next few days while the other, upon my opportunity to talk to the commissioner, will be refunded as soon as I have the money to do so. (I got the commission 50% done and will finish it. However, I am ashamed of how depression and anxiety made me delinquent in completing what should’ve been done months ago.).
DIRECT MESSAGES & JOURNALS:
While I catch up on submissions, comments, and my everyday e-mails, I will not be replying to Journals and Direct Messages. The stress is too high and the amount of energy I have to give quality responses is just not there yet. I will get to DMs and Journals. However, it will be awhile and I appreciate your patience as I get to where I can provide quality responses.
That about sums it all up for the time being. If you have any additional concerns, comments, and/or questions, please leave them in the comments below.
Your pal,
---Yosh E. O’Ducky ;)
New journal to celebrate my long overdue return to being an actual part of the furry art community!
So what has been happening over the past few months? Rather than ‘Quack Quack Quack’ endlessly, I’ll simplify it with ultra-cool, numbered bullet point! *Wiggles and waddles in place while flapping and slapping his arms against his sides*
1: YOSH ON PATREON:
patreon.com/MatthewPalumbo
With my screen-reading software, which is what allows me to interact with all of you despite being 100% blind, being less able to work with most art / social networking sites, I have turned to ‘Patreon’ to allow me to work with my boyfriend & caretaker,
lucca. I write my creative post in an e-mail that Lucca posts to Patreon for everyone to enjoy who can spare $3 each month to help a RL ‘Lame Duck’ feel a sense of having a job. (After 15 years of being psychologically abused, silently discriminated against, and receiving false promises of aid to acquire and retain employment in both private and public organizations, I am turning to Patreon to spare myself from the ongoing, which should not be still happening, situation of being a company’s “First blind person to work there” who is rejected and/or forced out when it is discovered that what the employer “Thought was supposed to be made accessible for individuals with disabilities” is not.).I am starting to learn how to respond, comment, and create polls on Patreon with Lucca’s help. Donations of more than $5 per month will be able to participate in special content where stories are made in ways that work best for both a person who is blind, like me, along with those who are not.
patreon.com/MatthewPalumbo
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2: SUBMISSION COMMENTS:[/b[
I’ve felt awful for how much I’ve fallen behind on replying, commenting, and interacting with all those posts you have all shared over the past few months. With my overall positivity coming back with full force, I have already begun to interact with over a dozen submissions from many moons ago. This will only continue as my most recent efforts towards fully accepting what I can and cannot do as a person who is blind become second nature instead of requiring active thought to do without feeling sad, lost, or less of what I had hoped to be prior to this effort to upgrade myself to [b]Yosh-E-O 2.0. (I’ve had no eyesight since December 2016, my right eye removed in 2019, and my left eye removed in November 2022. Despite all this, I have allowed myself to remain stuck in a state of believing I can vicariously / live through others those sighted experiences I am missing out on that, even with minimal eyesight, I could enjoy. As standard ‘Replacement Therapy’ had no effect, the Yosh-E-O 2.0 effort has been to work closely with Lucca to find new ways to feel happy and a part of the world that do not cause me to dwell on what was and could have been.).
3: STORY COMMISSIONS:
Being 100% honest, receiving a 7 day suspension and being hit with a ‘Level 4 Violation’ of FA’s AUP after nearly 15 years of posting material killed my creative motivation. Fortunately, the Yosh-E-O 2.0 effort has got me feeling filled with determination to return to writing. However, to be safe, I will be keeping stories that I make that could be viewed incorrectly by those who assume over understand exclusive to those who commission me and those who are willing to subscribe to above the $3 support level on the Patreon page that Lucca is assisting me with.
Currently, I have 2 commissions that are yet to be completed. One shall be finished within the next few days while the other, upon my opportunity to talk to the commissioner, will be refunded as soon as I have the money to do so. (I got the commission 50% done and will finish it. However, I am ashamed of how depression and anxiety made me delinquent in completing what should’ve been done months ago.).
DIRECT MESSAGES & JOURNALS:
While I catch up on submissions, comments, and my everyday e-mails, I will not be replying to Journals and Direct Messages. The stress is too high and the amount of energy I have to give quality responses is just not there yet. I will get to DMs and Journals. However, it will be awhile and I appreciate your patience as I get to where I can provide quality responses.
That about sums it all up for the time being. If you have any additional concerns, comments, and/or questions, please leave them in the comments below.
Your pal,
---Yosh E. O’Ducky ;)
Also, can I take the commission slot of the story you're about to complete for you beta reading my comic?
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Lucca and I had a fantastic Easter. What made it so great is that the anxiety and stress from how things were a year ago were pretty much non-existant. My sister, Winry, was even acknowledging Lucca's pressence! (My sister can be a really tough cookie when it comes to holding a grudge over the simplest of things.).
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The suspension was very, very out and beyond left field. My readership on FA is low, at best. Toss in the [ADULT CONTENT] tag, which limits who can actually see the post, along with how someone had to physically read the story that I got railed with the 'Level 4 Offense' makes my mind struggle between being upset, or happy, someone went through all the trouble to read something silly I wrote. :)
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I hope you have been well, Frisky. May all be swell until our paths cross again.
I'm sorry to hear about the challenges you have faced in the workplace due to discrimination and lack of accommodations. It's unacceptable that this kind of treatment still happens, and it's important to continue advocating for accessibility and inclusion for people with disabilities.
Regarding your commissions, it's understandable to feel discouraged and overwhelmed when dealing with mental health issues. Please be kind to yourself and don't feel ashamed for needing more time or support. It's important to prioritize your own well-being and not push yourself too hard.
It's great to hear that you are getting back into writing and that you are taking steps to prioritize your mental health. Managing direct messages and journals can be stressful and draining, especially when dealing with mental health issues. It's okay to take a break and prioritize self-care. Your followers and supporters will understand and be patient while you take the time you need.
Take care of yourself and know that you are valued and appreciated.
What is my greatest challenge is modifying the strict 'work ethic' I was raised to have. I grew up in a very small town that was very quick to assess one's value upon how well they fit in with what social norms had been assigned to males and females. My disability, which was low vision at the time, made me far from a 'masculine' male in the eyes of my classmates. This resulted in feeling very ostracized, unwanted, worthless, etc. It also is what, upon starting my first semester of college, made me wish I had been born a female. (Female responsibilities in backwoods USA were cool with being caring, compassionate individuals who excelled in performing administrative, educational, and counseling roles. All were what I found both enjoyable, doable, and rewarding.).
Thankfully, with my close friends here, my partner / caregiver, Lucca, and therapy, I've been able to better love myself for how I have more 'feminine qualities' than masculine. I am okay with the male parts and stuff, but feel best in fulfilling social norms that are typically assigned to females.
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Thanks for helping to give me that extra boost I needed to pull myself even more out of the hole I have been too close for comfort with. You are definitely someone to whom this community is honored to have. Keep up doing your part and I will make sure to do mine towards helping everyone feel a stronger sense of 'acceptance', 'understanding', 'empowerment', and 'community'. :)
It's great that you have found support from your close friends, partner/caregiver, and therapy. Self-love and self-acceptance are such important qualities to cultivate, and it's wonderful to hear that you are working on embracing your feminine qualities.
Remember that there is no right or wrong way to express your gender identity, and it's important to do what feels best for you. It's okay to have different interests and strengths than what is traditionally expected of your gender. What matters most is that you are true to yourself and find fulfillment in the things you do.
Thank you for your kind words and for your commitment to helping others feel a stronger sense of acceptance, understanding, empowerment, and community. Your unique perspective and experiences are valuable, and I wish you all the best as you continue on your journey of self-discovery and growth.