its been a long time since ive really been active here but i may be for the forseeable future since me and my boyfriend have been collabing on these adopts while im at his house :) theres like 5 more i still need to line lol but other than that theyre already done.. i hope ppl like them as much as we do, cause we kinda fell in love with their designs even tho we have no real use for them ourselves 😂

ive been on testosterone since september and its been good. im already getting some of all the changes i really wanted. (now if only my mustache would come in) im trying to get out of north carolina as much as i possibly can though because the political climate there just fucking sucks. Its been really hard because I've been struggling to do art for work lately. Its been 6 years and recently ive just wished I could put my limited energy towards art for fun/real practice and freedom and experimentation but i just dont have the motivation. I may be getting a job trimming flower (yes, that kind) soon and I genuinely hope to god it works out well enough that I can do that and earn some real money instead because right now I'm literally broke :")... I have like 3 dollars in the bank lol. #laughingthroughthepain

I have to go back home for a couple weeks soon though and I'm just not looking forward to it. The way my family treated me before I left has given me multiple nightmares since I've been gone (on top of the ones i already usually had about them) but its only temporary and then I can come back and try to get this money. I dont even know man I'm just trying to scrape by and exist and be moderately happy. Meanwhile I spend like literally 1/58th of my grandpas monthly income in a 2-month span for food and medicine and he acts like I'm doing too much (after he GAVE me permission to do those things) so I'm just unbelievably tired of everything and of money tbh. hopefully something works out soon