I can't believe it's May 1st, and my birthday is 10 days away...
Honestly, after all the ridiculous shit I had to go through since the beginning of this year I don't know what to feel or expect on my birthday. Good news is I'm feeling better than ever, but there are still things I'm still trying to deal with and that is sleeping. While I may have been getting some good amount of sleep, there are moments where I have trouble getting some good rest. How? Well, I think I said this before but as soon as my body and my breathing relaxes, I somehow stop breathing thus waking me up and/or feel a small jolt of pain on my chest that suddenly wakes me up. Is it stress or something? I don't know, but I do know it's not a serious health issue because the doctor checked my heart, blood pressure and blood itself and they all came out good. I spoke with them about what I'm dealing with and they wanted to prescribe me with anxiety medication or antidepressant medication (this was a couple months ago), I refused of course so they recommended me counseling. Fuck the bastards for not accepting my insurance, had to cancel the appointment just to wait another month for the other and other just for the same thing because I'm dealing with money troubles. In the end, I told them to don't bother since they do not want to accept my insurance and decided to deal this myself. As for my birthday, I don't know what to do. Likely I won't be able to do anything since money is still a huge problem and it is still a major stress for me.
But in good news, I'm getting better. Slowly getting back to things that I do such as gaming, doing Gunpla work and hopefully soon get back to drawing. Though will have to do some warmup sketches to get myself back in the game and draw some lewds and whatnut