So... a lot has happened over the past few months, which made this character perhaps the hardest I've ever written. It wasn't because of the subject matter (which was great) and it wasn't because I didn't like writing it (I loved it); it was how long and complex this beast was... and several huge shifts in my life. And I figure I've traumadumped too much in these journals, so let's talk about all the positives in my life now. Fear not: they'll be equally as TMI.

Within three months, I got a new job, finished a gruelling semester, dipped my toe into real-world social interactions again... and moved out. My keyboard also broke, and I think I've cracked a rib, but again, positive stuff only. It's all been immense, but I've been so busy that I haven't really stopped to think about... everything.

The job is good, pays well, and best of all, has a really flexible schedule. That means I can insert it into my “work schedule” for these characters. Just as planned, treating writing like a job helped me with a real-world job. I've also gone out a bit more, which... still feels scary, but I think it's necessary. But the biggest change, obviously, is moving out.

It happened in the span of a week. Obviously the preparations took longer, but it felt like I'd moved in in a manner of days. And had to take a crash course in adulting; not the kind I write about, but real, boring adulting. Like groceries and rent and laundry and cooking and upkeep. All the while, I was working on the biggest character I've ever done, and possibly the biggest story I've ever written. As well as other projects, such as at least two other games. As I mentioned, I'm only now realising how much has happened.

...I feel like I'm blowing this all out of proportion (as usual), but I think back to where I was when I first started this “career”. Some of you might remember it, but I... was in a very interesting place in my life at that time. Not to traumadump (or worse, doxx myself), but the 2010s were... not good for my health. I can say for certain that when I was writing my first characters in 2017, I did not expect to make it here; take whatever meaning you want from that, since all of them are true.

But I did. Somehow. And now I'm facing “normal” problems, like schedules and taxes and if I turned off the porchlights. I still haven't really... considered it? It's still kinda surreal, and I guess I'm still terrified that it'll get stolen from me again. I think it's called “post-traumatic growth”, but I'd prefer it just be “growth”. I don't want the trauma to keep influencing things; not anymore.



...So that's great and all, yoshielder, everyone's very impressed, but what about your TF stories? What's next?

Unfortunately, what's next might be a bit of a break. A very tiny one, like a week at most, while I get my computer fixed. Then, it's off to the next character; this is the cat one! It and the next character (the bird one) will likely be shorter than Samantha & Hana, but the one after that... is even longer. No rest for the wicked: I should've considered that before I started writing smut.

I also have a fun project on the way, that I'm looking forward to showing you. No word on when it'll be out, but all I'll say is I've worked on it before~ Also, while I've got you, play Vampire's Curse! It's a vampire TF game with a ton of content by thriller12345 (who's also done loads of TT characters!), that I've been lucky enough to bugtest.

I think that's it. The next time I talk to you, it'll likely be next month. As always, thank you for joining me on this wild ride.
- yoshielder