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Twitter Circles and the Fear-Of-Missing-Out
2 years ago
Ever since Twitter Circles and Mutuals-Only replying existed on this platform, my FOMO to become social has been on overdrive. I realize there are so many people I thought I was mutuals with are not the case, and I get to miss out on conversations and giveaways. This is so wrong. I get that people have the right to choose who can and can't interact with them, but to be shut down from any chances of interacting with my idols I've admired for years makes me feel like an outsider to them and their follower base. I know I can't be everyone's friend, but still. Worst part is I've neglected my mutuals because I'm hyperfixating on those I can't interact with. This mindset of wanting every secret clubhouse access is spreading me thin. This platform is poisoning my mind and I ignore political tweets. I will focus on my friends that matter.
Pardon for getting this out of my thoughts. I wouldn't put it past any specific mutual that is no longer comfortable following me after reading my vent. Thank you for reading. No one man should make too many connections lest they shall never find time to invest their friendships.
This has been copied from my SFW Twitter which is why my texts seem brief and compressed.
Pardon for getting this out of my thoughts. I wouldn't put it past any specific mutual that is no longer comfortable following me after reading my vent. Thank you for reading. No one man should make too many connections lest they shall never find time to invest their friendships.
This has been copied from my SFW Twitter which is why my texts seem brief and compressed.
It's soul crushing on top of loneliness. I had to leave for my own mental sakes.
I think it ok to vent this frustration, Twitter do be a source of stress alot of the time.
I would be less understanding if I wasn't denied this in a chat before. I remember talking with one of my art idols and ask if we could hang out more. They declined saying they didn't want to handle more people than they were barely keeping in reach. That partly devastated me because I related to the idea of making too many connections. I just have no restraint and would actively choose to burn myself out unlike them where they prefer to stay in their comfort zone. That was quite a while ago now that I think about it.