I need to vent a bit because I actually really feel that way.

In May 2016 I officially started to pursuit my goal: becoming a freelance Artist. 7 years later and I feel like I didn't make any progress. Sure my art as improve (A lot even). But the visibility just become harder and harder. It's not fair. I feel like I'm after a party and everyone got the right to have their fun, but I wasn't allowed to have some... Sometime I feel unfairly unnoticed. It's even more visible with Twitter. How did I know ? My art I'm posting never got likes or even a share, EXCEPT if it's something I draw for someone else. Now I got the attention. But the people who's following me heh what a joke, they only like and retweet what I retweet not what I originally made. Yeah that's the thing which annoyed me the most actually. I can be as supportive as I can for other artist I feel like no one want me to get some support. Did I make something wrong ? Am I not worth to be seen ? Am I really not interesting to become an Artist ? A paid one ? I wish People should sometime in return give me some feedback to my own art. Because how many times should I keep suffering to become a paid and supported artist ? And How long ? Yes I have a job I should be happy to have one. But I'm not, I'm just glad it's my only income because I will end in the road as a house otherwise. I'm sure if I disappear no one will notice. Even Sometimes mostly this year I was wondering if I should bring my problems and asking for help. But knowing my luck no one will give a shit I need money. Because I think other people have more needs to their issue than mine so I don't matter. And if I do that I feel like a scam.

Here my thoughts. I needed to vent a bit because every years since I started to become an artist it become harder and harder to keep a good moral and not thinking about "not getting attention". I know I don't have control to people and I shouldn't complain. But sometimes, it's for feeling better afterwards. Keeping for myself some grudge will hurt me even more than just talking a let go my thoughts. I'm sure one day I will become a good artist people will follow. But as my metaphor about the after party tell it's really my thinking. I feel like I am after a party and everyone as already got their share part of the cake and all it left to me is only some leftover. So you my followers who you actually watching me and giving me faves, yes YOU in particular. Let me thank you, because as small your support is, for me is a really big gift you doing every time you show some appreciation on my stuff and thank you to give me a spark of hope I can one day becoming a full time freelance artist.