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Deleting ALL Eluna/Althena/ETC Art
2 years ago
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I have a lot of art on my account of my old abusive ex's characters and I've finally come to a point where I'm just not remotely comfortable with his characters in my gallery. Not only was he abusive but he was 7 years older than me and orbitted and groomed me since I was 13, something I didn't really realize until more recently. I'm not going to point out where he is now or what his username is now because you can't do that on FA, but I just wanted people to know the giant raichu and Erebus' sister and a few other characters are no longer welcome in my gallery.
I'm upset that this whole grooming thing never really came to light because it never occurred to me until now, and this person really destroyed a lot of my personality and is responsible for a lot of shitty behavior I had that I picked up from him. And I just want to be done with it.
I'm very ashamed of myself because my most recent psychotic episode I went out of my way to contact him and act like we could be friends again because in that state I thought I needed to reconnect with all the old people in my life and I feel absolutely disgusting because of it.
So, anyways, yeah, if you notice a bunch of art missing, that's why. The only ones I'll be keeping up are group images with other peoples' characters in them
I'm upset that this whole grooming thing never really came to light because it never occurred to me until now, and this person really destroyed a lot of my personality and is responsible for a lot of shitty behavior I had that I picked up from him. And I just want to be done with it.
I'm very ashamed of myself because my most recent psychotic episode I went out of my way to contact him and act like we could be friends again because in that state I thought I needed to reconnect with all the old people in my life and I feel absolutely disgusting because of it.
So, anyways, yeah, if you notice a bunch of art missing, that's why. The only ones I'll be keeping up are group images with other peoples' characters in them
GlowBat
~lucario2000
Wow, those are names ive not heard of in...a very long time.... sorry to hear he did that stuff to you...
JitterbugJive
~balddumborat
OP
Yeah, he did a lot of nasty stuff. Encouraged me to draw NSFW before I was 18, even hosted a website for me to post said NSFW. Kept comparing me to his girlfriend at the time and saying how much better I was than her and then broke up with her when I turned 18 in order to date me. Made me think being an asshole was cool. Isolated me from my friends and family. Made me do things I didn't want to do by threats of suicide. Constantly insulting me if I didn't do exactly what he wanted when he wanted it. Once guilted the shit out of me when I dared to forget my phone ONCE when I went on an outing. Expected me to call him the moment I woke up and keep talking with him until I went to bed. Would stalk my accounts and come after me if I did anything after saying goodbye for the night, so say I favorite an image an hour after saying goodnight, he'd get mad at me for it. Would be paranoid about me spending time with any of my friends and get jealous and think I might cheat on him, ended up cheating on me instead. Twice. Made me feel guilty for being in a long distance relationship where he would constantly demand more and more extreme things from me to help him get off. He was a really horrible person and I wish I never met him.
GlowBat
~lucario2000
I...had no idea...he never seemed like that when me and him spoke, Im sorry he did that to ya...good riddance to everything of his then!
Yeah he was really good at not seeming like a bad guy to other people. That's how a lot of abusers are actually. that was part of what made it so hard for me. I'd tell his friends after everything how he treated me but because they didn't see that bad behavior, they continued to be his friend while I got left behind. I do have a few friends who did witness that behavior though and they were the reason I got out of that relationship. Specifically, one noticed I was suicidal without my saying so, and when they asked me about it I realized enough was enough.
ViverViperi
~viverviperi
at least you are cleansing your gallery of negativity now. i think it is a good idea, though. don't get me wrong.
JitterbugJive
~balddumborat
OP
Yeah, I got tired of feeling sick every time I saw his characters when going through my gallery. It's about time I leave that stuff behind for good.
NightWolf
~nightwolf714
Oh damn. I'm so sorry you went through that. No one should.
Bluedeer
~bluedeer
You do you, what's good for you, and no blame comes to you. It's hard to recognize toxic behavior when it's directed to you, and even harder to muster up the strength to push it out of your life. I think this is a great thing for you, and I wish you the best.
Glad to see him taken to the curb.
StrongBrush1
~strongbrush1
Understandable.
betteroffdeaderer
~betteroffdeaderer
It's always good to do a purge like this. You shouldn't keep a work that makes you feel like this. I wish all the best for you.
JitterbugJive
~balddumborat
OP
I'm just way too sentimental about my artwork, I hate getting rid of any of it and a lot of those images had a lot of favorites, some even in the top fav'd images. But enough is enough, I don't want to keep getting a gut punch every time I browse my gallery
