Not gonna lie. Things have not been easy. And it feels like College has gone out of its way to try an pull the rug from under my feet. But I finally Graduated after Ten Years. Yes, Ten Years. I won't lie, I did say Succeed or Fail, I would Move on from College and make my own way. Well, I've Done it! I Passed my Course and I can Move on to Graduation! Good God! It feels good, and yet it feels so late... But I'm doing my best to see the Brighter side of things.

So with College out of the way now. I'm going to have to move forward, where to? I know I want to get into writing. But I also want to do something more creative with myself. I might start Sketching stuff in my spare time, though I want to make more than just drawings since feel the need to Apply my mind to a project that's bigger than me.

I also feel like I'd do good with assisting others in their work, maybe helping to clear up some thoughts or to be a Teacher myself some day. I Know I've had those sorts of ideas and thoughts before. It wouldn't hurt to try.


As for life, I am seriously feeling overwhelmed, and a bit stressed. Starting from June 7th to possibly the 28th. I'll be out of town, heading across state to go spend some time with my brother. I'm glad he wants to see us, but I don't if its the same for me. I want him to be happy, I'm just not sure about myself at the moment. :( Not helped by the prospects of my Mom, who's thinking of doing business now. And they want to make it a family thing.

I just want to be able to Work somewhere where I'm not reminded of my Family 24/7. And of My brother's successes compared to mine. And/or his Prospects for me. He might even ask me to work for him... I don't want that. It feels condemning.

And there's nothing worse than feeling like I can't make my future my own...