I'm writing this up before heading to bed since I figured it would be important for yall to know, I have good news and bad news and I'm gonna start with the bad news.

So people who have known me either as a friend, have a few specific journals I posted, or have read my about me probably know that I have the mental stability of heavily cracked glass that's almost reached the point of shattering but hasn't. Why this is important is because even after I get my valve index headset and say farewell to my quest 2 headset I probably will still be rather slow and inconsistent with my vrc photography side gig I've taken up, not only will my mental health be a factor that gets in the way but work will most likely be getting in the way a lot more too. However this doesn't mean I will stop doing this altogether, this just simply means that I'm focusing more on trying to better my life by getting on anti-depressants and working on living somewhere with someone so I can feel safe for once in my life (the reason why I'm not already on anti-depressants and why I'm not happy with my living situation is classified information). I really do enjoy posing myself as an avatar people would probably drool over and taking pictures for yall to see for whatever reason so I don't wanna stop doing this altogether, though I probably should start getting avatars uploaded to my account so the possibility of avatars I find that are set to public that get deleted doesn't become a serious problem.

Now for the good news, my day of creation (a.k.a my birthday) is approaching finally! I was created on the last day of June and after waiting forever it's finally coming again. Naturally I wouldn't be excited about turning older but in this case when I do turn older I'll finally be able to start properly putting effort into trying to patch the constant decay that is my mental health. For those who're reading this and do art for a living I'm not in anyways demanding you to make me anything special for my birthday but you are more then welcome to if you're feeling up for it, if you do wish to show support for me somehow still being alive even after all the mental and physical beatings I've endured then a simple "Happy birthday" or "Happy creation day" will do.

Now then, I'm gonna go catch some well needed sleep so I can work in the morning. To everyone reading this I wish you a good morning, good evening or good night depending on the time it is when you're reading this. And please remember that no matter how much pain you have to endure and no matter how many times life beats you senseless like a roid raging buff dude, there will always be light at the end of the tunnel no matter how long that tunnel may be. And don't try to do everyone on your own, know that sometimes you might need someone you can rely on to help pick you back up when you've just about given up and that's willing to listen to you vent about whatever is troubling you. You are not alone, even if you believe so deep down because "no one knows what this is like" or "no one will understand or want to deal with me" when in reality there are people are real friends that don't give a fuck how different you are because they care about you and wish for you to win this mental battle in the end.

Peace out yall, hope things get better or stay good.