vent
2 years ago
im genuinely surprised i havent done what the black guy with the lightning said to do
i hate my life
i hate my job
i hate my family
i hate my "art"
why do you people still stick around me
what are you accomplishing
"iTs BeCaUsE yOu'Re A nIcE pErSoN"
shut up
please shut up
im not a nice person
im not a pleasant person to be around
i hate my life
i hate my job
i hate my family
i hate my "art"
why do you people still stick around me
what are you accomplishing
"iTs BeCaUsE yOu'Re A nIcE pErSoN"
shut up
please shut up
im not a nice person
im not a pleasant person to be around
im never gonna be successful
i suck at my job
im constantly being reminded that im not good enough
im never allowed to have feelings
is that enough for you?
Failure is only a thing if you don't try to improve yourself, I've seen myself as a failure multiple times and in some ways I still do. I'm almost 22 and still don't have a job, I feel like I don't do much to help out at home, I feel like I didn't do more while my mom was still alive...
But you know what ? I still feel like that, but everyday I'm trying to improve myself and my way of thinking. Could I do more or better ? Yes, but only if I want to.
Every feeling you have is valid...even the petty ones. There's nothing wrong with asking for help if you really need something. But like I said it all boils down to you. You can let these negative thought eat you alive or you try and face a challenge one step at time :3