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Soooo
Now that I've had time to adjust and practice being a better person overall, it definitely feels more 'me' as it were.
That last journal wasn't just meant for Emberflame despite her being in it, I've tried irl to just like, be nicer.
I tended to ghost/evade people instead of saying i'm not in the mood or don't want to talk, I find it hard to just say no in general, I was abrasive/prickly, just, it felt wrong.
But I find it hard to change myself around people I'm comfortable or have known for a long time, it feels; weird?
Regardless, I feel like I'm doing a lot better but am by no means like, perfect or morally high ground or whatever. Although it has been nice for older friends of mine to say I'm acting like myself again, hah.
As for Emberflame, I will be toning back the super kindness and such a bit. I'd like her to just be like, kind, trusting, affectionate, but also have that kitsune knack for mischief.
She just won't do like, fatal unless someone really wanted it blblbl, or just long term harm stuff in general. She likes to have the kind of fun that's easy to fix, so to speak
But yeah, I just wanna keep improving at this point. Cause I don't wanna be a drama magnet, or an abrasive asshole, or just like, I just wanna be me.
Even if I worry i'll be a pushover again-
Now that I've had time to adjust and practice being a better person overall, it definitely feels more 'me' as it were.
That last journal wasn't just meant for Emberflame despite her being in it, I've tried irl to just like, be nicer.
I tended to ghost/evade people instead of saying i'm not in the mood or don't want to talk, I find it hard to just say no in general, I was abrasive/prickly, just, it felt wrong.
But I find it hard to change myself around people I'm comfortable or have known for a long time, it feels; weird?
Regardless, I feel like I'm doing a lot better but am by no means like, perfect or morally high ground or whatever. Although it has been nice for older friends of mine to say I'm acting like myself again, hah.
As for Emberflame, I will be toning back the super kindness and such a bit. I'd like her to just be like, kind, trusting, affectionate, but also have that kitsune knack for mischief.
She just won't do like, fatal unless someone really wanted it blblbl, or just long term harm stuff in general. She likes to have the kind of fun that's easy to fix, so to speak
But yeah, I just wanna keep improving at this point. Cause I don't wanna be a drama magnet, or an abrasive asshole, or just like, I just wanna be me.
Even if I worry i'll be a pushover again-
