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The State of Caudle (Mental Breakdown, please email me)
2 years ago
Because of everything below stickers will now be shipping on the 15th, sorry for the delay, anyway ONWARDS *AHEM*
SO
I had a bit of a mental breakdown at the end of May. I've always had sleep issues and they got so bad that I was sleeping like 3 hours every two days. This, and my depression led to a suicide scare. A few months after the scare things came to a head on the 23rd (I think? )
It got so bad, that I got put on a 10-13 medical hold and was put in a facility for 12 days after professionals were called.
I'm on an outpatient program now with new medication.
THAT BEING SAID
I turn 30 in July, and I never want to feel the way I felt during all this again. I have so many friends I was short and waspish too while I was in the middle of my psychotic break, I yelled out a lot of stuff I shouldn't have and to be honest my memory of the day is maybe 30% as I was sleep deprived, depressed and angry at the world at large.
I want to heal now, I desperately do, and I want to heal particularly with those who have commissioned me and not gotten a response. I've been spinning in my hamster wheel for too long and I honestly need to lighten my load. I've called for folks asking for refunds, or restructuring for a while and I mean it.
If you want a refund, I can't do it today, but let me know if you want one and you will get one. If you're happy to continue waiting, thank you, I will finish what's still on the list, but my life flasehd before my eyes and how much of my life is comissioner anxiety is insane. I love my work, I love making things for you guys but I REALLY need to clean my sheet.
If you have any animosity with me, or just want to hash out what we're going to do next if I owe you a project, please emai:
Dossierdeliverydog[at]gmail.com
I want to heal, and more than that I want to be free in my 30s. I've had a financial ball and chain around my ankles for years and I want it to stop, and I want to do right by the people who payed me in hopes of work, i"ve let too much fall by the wayside, and I want to stop doing that, PLEASE hit me up if I have ever wronged you in any way, if you're willing to talk it out I'm willing to listen)
SO
I had a bit of a mental breakdown at the end of May. I've always had sleep issues and they got so bad that I was sleeping like 3 hours every two days. This, and my depression led to a suicide scare. A few months after the scare things came to a head on the 23rd (I think? )
It got so bad, that I got put on a 10-13 medical hold and was put in a facility for 12 days after professionals were called.
I'm on an outpatient program now with new medication.
THAT BEING SAID
I turn 30 in July, and I never want to feel the way I felt during all this again. I have so many friends I was short and waspish too while I was in the middle of my psychotic break, I yelled out a lot of stuff I shouldn't have and to be honest my memory of the day is maybe 30% as I was sleep deprived, depressed and angry at the world at large.
I want to heal now, I desperately do, and I want to heal particularly with those who have commissioned me and not gotten a response. I've been spinning in my hamster wheel for too long and I honestly need to lighten my load. I've called for folks asking for refunds, or restructuring for a while and I mean it.
If you want a refund, I can't do it today, but let me know if you want one and you will get one. If you're happy to continue waiting, thank you, I will finish what's still on the list, but my life flasehd before my eyes and how much of my life is comissioner anxiety is insane. I love my work, I love making things for you guys but I REALLY need to clean my sheet.
If you have any animosity with me, or just want to hash out what we're going to do next if I owe you a project, please emai:
Dossierdeliverydog[at]gmail.com
I want to heal, and more than that I want to be free in my 30s. I've had a financial ball and chain around my ankles for years and I want it to stop, and I want to do right by the people who payed me in hopes of work, i"ve let too much fall by the wayside, and I want to stop doing that, PLEASE hit me up if I have ever wronged you in any way, if you're willing to talk it out I'm willing to listen)
With many projects you do and many art and audios you created, it brighten up many people in the community, you are a success Caudle.
Just take some time to your self and it will all work out at the end.
You got This ❤️
I know it's super hard, but you can make it and find success, especially with money, I know it. Don't give up! Trust yourself, and just try to improve day by day. I'm struggling myself with work ethic, so I sympathize completely.
Beautiful things do happen, and I'm wishing those bright signs to you to guide your way.
Hang in there, buddy. If you ever need someone to just talk to, note me for my telegram or Discord. I'm just a fan but if it means having someone there in the darkness with you so you're not alone, I'm happy to be a presence.
You can make it :3 <3