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Break maybe
2 years ago
Taking a slight break from twitter, not sure if that’ll carry over to here or anything but just not in a good headspace about my art lately. Seeing the numbers is just making it worse. I feel like a total ass for letting it get to me when I see others doing so much better than me. But I’ll try to stop. I’m happy for them but I can’t help but think “wtf is wrong with me then” or “jeez my stuff really does suck huh.” Just gonna try to focus on my art and making it better so it’s not boring and I know how to actually do simple things like cel shade, which I feel like the biggest dumbass for not being able to do well. Gonna work on posing and composition so it’s not boring af, my lineart, shading, everything. I have lots of general ideas for what I wanna draw, I have a little list written out, so hopefully I can make them good pics.
This isn’t aimed at anyone in specific either, I wanna clarify.
Sorry to be so negative but that’s how it is sometimes.
Idk if there will be a lull in art or not. Maybe a bit anyway cause I’m working on my next animation again. I want to get better, art is literally the only thing I have that I can somewhat do, since I was little. I want to improve but sometimes I think “I been drawing since I was little and been posting art online since I was like 12 and I might as well have started drawing like within the last year based on my skills”
Feels like a dead end sometimes. Went to school for 3d animation, suck at 3d animation and no drive for it. Partly cause of a terrible professor I had but idk. Been drawing for my whole life almost, still amateur. Im gonna be 25 soon. But with where I am with my skills and in life in general I might as well be 15 again. Even then I’d probably be out of place, there’s 14 year olds animating on big movies and I can’t do as much as finish a single animating exercise ffs.
Again I’m not mad at people for being successful. That’s great for them and awesome. But I’ve always hard a hard time not letting that put my own stuff into a negative perspective.
I probably sound like a jerk and an ass for saying all this, and a hypocrite cause I just reached 2k on Twitter which is great but there are times I just can’t help feeling this way yknow. I’ve had some successful posts on there so really I have no place to be upset but those do feel more like outliers than successes when it’s not consistent, if that makes sense. And I know numbers aren’t the only thing that matters I get that. I draw because I love to draw. I don’t draw things thinking “this’ll get a lot of attention I bet.” Usually the ones that do are the ones I think won’t do well at all because of the characters in them or something.
Anyway sorry if I sound like a jerk. I don’t mean to. It’s just been a rough time. I’m not quitting art but I clearly need to reevaluate my skills and try to correct 18+ years of being self taught and getting into bad habits. Just trying to be someone talented with no natural talents.
If you like my art, thank you. I truly do appreciate it despite how I sound like a whiny baby rn. I don’t want to devalue that at all. Really, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I might delete this later idk. Just kinda ranting and spewing out words at this point.
Again sorry for the negativity. Just how it is. Doubt anybody’s read this but if you have…sorry about the negativity and hope you have a nice day
This isn’t aimed at anyone in specific either, I wanna clarify.
Sorry to be so negative but that’s how it is sometimes.
Idk if there will be a lull in art or not. Maybe a bit anyway cause I’m working on my next animation again. I want to get better, art is literally the only thing I have that I can somewhat do, since I was little. I want to improve but sometimes I think “I been drawing since I was little and been posting art online since I was like 12 and I might as well have started drawing like within the last year based on my skills”
Feels like a dead end sometimes. Went to school for 3d animation, suck at 3d animation and no drive for it. Partly cause of a terrible professor I had but idk. Been drawing for my whole life almost, still amateur. Im gonna be 25 soon. But with where I am with my skills and in life in general I might as well be 15 again. Even then I’d probably be out of place, there’s 14 year olds animating on big movies and I can’t do as much as finish a single animating exercise ffs.
Again I’m not mad at people for being successful. That’s great for them and awesome. But I’ve always hard a hard time not letting that put my own stuff into a negative perspective.
I probably sound like a jerk and an ass for saying all this, and a hypocrite cause I just reached 2k on Twitter which is great but there are times I just can’t help feeling this way yknow. I’ve had some successful posts on there so really I have no place to be upset but those do feel more like outliers than successes when it’s not consistent, if that makes sense. And I know numbers aren’t the only thing that matters I get that. I draw because I love to draw. I don’t draw things thinking “this’ll get a lot of attention I bet.” Usually the ones that do are the ones I think won’t do well at all because of the characters in them or something.
Anyway sorry if I sound like a jerk. I don’t mean to. It’s just been a rough time. I’m not quitting art but I clearly need to reevaluate my skills and try to correct 18+ years of being self taught and getting into bad habits. Just trying to be someone talented with no natural talents.
If you like my art, thank you. I truly do appreciate it despite how I sound like a whiny baby rn. I don’t want to devalue that at all. Really, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I might delete this later idk. Just kinda ranting and spewing out words at this point.
Again sorry for the negativity. Just how it is. Doubt anybody’s read this but if you have…sorry about the negativity and hope you have a nice day
Having to repost the last few years of my work has gotten me a bit down, feeling like I've not moved the needle much after so much work done.
Remember all things come in perspective, what you may think is boring, most people won't, purely because you've been looking at it while you draw it for many hours, vs what the viewers see after its completed.
As an outsider, but a fellow artist, I think your approach to art, anatomy render and posing is pretty good! I don't think it's boring, cuz I see you drawing many different characters and shapes!
Maybe mixing up things could help you get out of that mood, trying a different style, go paintery, go pixel-style, try different renders or a drastically different type of character to what you use to do, mixing things up can help you broaden your horizons a bit and give you a breather every now and then.
Lastly, while keeping track of metrics is good business-wise, it can lead to unhealthily fixating on them. I would suggest putting that energy/investment in growing a community over just flat number go up. It's too volatile a metric to rely on~
If you wanna chat with a fellow artist, just him me up! I've been looking at your stuff for a while, and I think you're pretty good! Both my discord and telegram @s is asbiearts
Take any time you need to recuperate, and come back stronger than ever.