Strange to read this from an artist as yourself, your gallery is wonderful!

I suppose lot of furries here dont think same

(I'm not interested in vehicles, but even I'm impressed of your cars)

It's unfortunate, but honestly your health matters more. Though it's obvious, I don't think you should base your self worth on a platform. Your work is gorgeous and has value. I don't think anything could change that, but it would be ideal if you could learn to love it by looking at it with new eyes...this is not always a possibility for those with self loathing creeping in their veins. If you wind up changing your mind, I'd be happy to re-add you. For now, I suppose this will be goodbye.

maybe someday....

If at all possible...stop commissions, but don't be scared to do more for yourself. I think if you just did things for you, you might feel a lot less performance pressure. Creativity can't be at another's whim all the time. It needs to breathe.

I planning to take a loong brake after I do all of my debts, about a year or more...I actually not sure that I can never draw again

Best of luck dude!

Aww, I was excited to see more of your work! :( But this is something you feel is best, and you should not feel bad about your decision. I wish you the best Cereus, in whatever else you decide to do in life!

yep, nothing is endless

I feel like FA has slowly been withering for a while now. It's just a very old site and the Internet in general is going through a weird shift at the moment. As a result direct engagement is smaller and smaller for most artists.

I think it would be a shame to abandon art. FA is a good gallery site unlike twitter which is horrible to browse old art, but you won't find much direct engagement. What I've seen a lot of artists do pretty successfully is make a discord server. That was the watchers who are truly interested in let's say more social aspects (commenting, discussing, feedback, etc) will have a more direct place to gather. And you'll have a better idea of how many watchers you actually have. I'm not sure FA deletes unused and abandoned accounts so it very well could be over half your nr. Of watchers is actually inactive for years.

In the end you only really need a handful of people who like what you do and engage with you. Better 5 of those than 1000 silent watchers. To attract more people you could go the twitter route but I'd advise against making that your core platform.

Won't lie, art is a tough market nowadays. There are more artists than ever competing over a declining number of people willing to spend money on art. But if this js your passion don't give up on it. Maybe try to create art with your own characters or about your own world.

Maybe someday later, Now I just squeezed and crushed.

Thank you for your beautiful drawings. Good luck to whatever you do in your future. Hopefully one day you will return. Right now, all I ask is that you keep your account up so we can continue to enjoy your art

My acc will stay cause its part of my history. I dont want to forget this time

You great artist and if you need share and advertise I will absolutely happy to advertise you. Also I advice you create instagram, I will help you here if you want

Thank you for trying to help, but this is superfluous, I no longer want anything. Just hand out the rest of the work and leave to recover

After recover I would be happy to help with insta, insta now alive and good place for artist

Thank you^^ I will keep it in mind)

This is a bit sad to read. I've always loved your art and was excited to commission you when I had the chance. I hope things turn out for the better.

I hope so

I wish I could do something or be of some help, but outside of saying look out for yourself and your own interests first.... there is not much help I can give.... I wish you the best in life in what ever you choose to do.

I'm really sorry...

That really sucks... I really like your art and am a fan of it. Your details are great.. If you need to take a step back to focus on your mental health, do so. Your happiness and well being is very important :<

thank you

Of course. Take care of yourself before anything else. Your well-being is important.

I totally get it. If you publish NSFW, the people come and love your stuff, because they find it sexy.
But if you give them SFW content, nobody cares.
I notice it myself, my NSFW picture from my character get responses, but if I tell them, here is the story about the character, literally 0 of my 207 watcher did even click the link. People are here to get some sexuell sensation, not because their care about the things you do or the story/world you are building.

hah) peoples dont like even NSFW from me, well....

Could shift to being a SFW artist; although it gets fewer clicks. Always keep drawing, or shift into creating pottery, or traditional works.

Thank you for everything you've created.
If this is what you want or need then I support you all the same.

I relate to this feeling a lot. I've been posting on here for three years and have virtually no following or engagement. Your art is amazing, and I've silently followed it almost the whole of that time. Even if it feels like shouting into the void, making art is for yourself - and if it isn't working, stepping away might be a good idea. I stopped using platforms aside from FA because I have low expectations for FA and enjoy looking at other's postings more than keeping up with my own stuff, but I understand wanting more engagement here. The self-hatred of your art too, the frustration. Its an awful feeling and you aren't alone.

This is probably my favorite piece from you: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/31721653/
And I really like this next one for how well it conveys and everyday scenario: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51772312/

I'm saying this to hopefully make you realize that you are not forgotten, but underappreciated. Your skills are still really good. I wish you the best.

Thank you. Underappreciation kills

What? Dude, your work is phenomenal! Just cause we may not leave a comment or talk about it doenst mean we don't love it!

Feedback are realy important thing here) cause I am not a telepath and dunno what peoples think about my art, only I saw it low feedback, no new watchers, no bids on my commissions, then I KNOW people dont like my art

I think you're making too many assumptions... the world economy is dogshit right now. Not that many people can afford to spend extra money on artwork. I'd comm you if I had extra money, but I usually don't.

Still, if this is what you Wana do, then I wish you all the best of luck. Were gonna miss you.

I will be quite sad to see you go! I always wanted to get more pieces from you as your work on hard surfaces is quite simply fantastic, but never got the chance to as a number of things came up in my own life.
If you do return, I'd love to work with you again some day.

That said, I hope your future, whatever you may strive for, is bright and wonderful. Here's to your health, happiness and joy!

Thank you) I don't think we're saying goodbye forever)

Oh that's good to hear!
In that case I look forwards to seeing you again in the future! However long you need to take, I'll look forwards to it.

I'm sorry to hear that, Cereus. I've tried to help as much as I could, but sadly it didn't seem to havemuch effect. Eventually, one has to make a decision about a worsening situation, so know that you have all of my support.

I hope that things get better on your end and maybe one day find the joy in painting once more, maybe when you have more stability and can take it again as a hobby, rather than as a career. Know once more that I love your work and all the comms you've done for me. Good luck in your future endeavours.

You awesome man, and your support was very helpful, I suppose that I would have burned out a half year earlier if not for your support. It's just that the moment has come that has been ripening in me for 2-3 years

I have always admired your pictures and can only say:
you art is awesome and i hope that you will find your way back someday.
I wish you all the best for whatever you decide to do now

I don't comment often on FA beacause i'm not so active on this platform but aww... it's unfortunate to hear this but i understand your situation and i hope you can recover from this someday and start again in a new way.

Art Block and Burnout can be really tough to defeat specially when you feel that your works are not receiving so much feedback and you struggle to find new customers, add also personal troubles and the actual world situation (war, inflation, crisis... all fucked up) and the "omelette" is made.

Seriously... i know your works takes lots of your time and blood but you are one of the few artist here with such skills drawing something of niche with such level of detail and environment, and this was one of the reasons that i have decided to commission you.

Well.. if this is really a goodbye and we cannot see you here anymore in future, stay safe and take care of you, your mental health is more important than the work

Farewell ^^

I believe that the only way to live this life is to do it for yourself.
Not for the reactions and comments, not for the spotlight but to challenge yourself and grow.
I'm in a worse position that you with less interactions and 1000 less watchers but I keep going because I know I can do better if I keep trying. I think it's because I'm unhappy with where I am that I keep moving forwards, the determination to do better, to improve, to get somewhere no matter how long it takes... But it's crushing. Every day. Few people have any idea how much it takes, how painful it is to keep moving, how hard it is to pick yourself, to not compare yourself critically against others... So many people who are better at art, many people worse at art but who have tons of watchers and comments and popularity... It's hard and I'm sorry to see you buckle under that weight and I do hope you find the strength and passion again. In my eyes, you have a lot going for you, you just need the will to continue for yourself. I hope you find it again.

I think its possible to back here)

I am glad to hear this and hope to see you return :)
Sending best wishes and luck.

I think your art skills are absolutely fantastic and that it would be a shame for you to stop, but if it's your mental health on the line then that comes first. I just hate to see extremely talented people burn out and quit. But if art is only causing you agony right now and you hate doing it now, then the people who matter will respect your decision, but don't let assholes in the fandom sway you.