Making progress on things is hard. Haven't really written anything in months and just wanted to check in publicly with people about this sort of stuff. Honestly just really not sure what to do when it comes to making anything online anymore. Weirdness with a lot of things has stifled my desire to create more and more and games keep coming out, which means I get extra excuse to be lazy. I've had ideas and I still need to catch up with things I owe to people, so... ech.

I also don't really know what I want to keep doing here as I try to exist on this platform. I have a wide variety of things I enjoy and they can alienate others and put a target on my back for controversy if I try to branch out into anything more "personal," like attempting NSFW voice acting under this name or anything like that. I'm scared of connecting real world things to this, especially as I think more about making other online personas and doing more than just make furry stuff. I'm just an anxious mess and the more time goes on the worse it gets, even while medicated.

Complaining and borderline existential social terror aside, I am really grateful to all my friends who I've kept in touch with through all of this on my personal server. Social things are hard and I'm an anxious horny mess and I appreciate everyone sticking around, even if it's just a small group I chat to semi-consistently. The patience they've had with my insanity is something I can't thank enough. I really just want to get out of this rut and make them happier, make more friends, do more things, just... improve.

I honestly find it ironic that I was talking about opening commissions roughly three months ago and I haven't written anything in roughly three months.