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My Suspension, Apologies, and Taking Responsibility
2 years ago
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So if yall havent noticed, i got Suspended for "...accepting and continuing to accept/request commissions without completing outstanding and overdue work."
Which is correct in technicality, but allow me to explain myself and take responsibility for the situation, so im gonna cut this up a bit
Apologies:
I do Apologize for the trouble some of you have been through while waiting for my commissions and i know seeing me accept more commissions is jarring but i swear theres a serious reason ill get into further, I didn't hide from my suspension, I in fact wore it on my chest to grow from it and do better, and i do think i can do better, and will try my damn best to do better, im still working on commissions, saving personal work and projects for weekends and so-on, ive tried to remain communicating to clients i can contact. i do not want any of you to wait too too long as its stressful to ALL of us. If im not in some health issue (which honestly has gotten better over the few months thank you) i will be working to making sure everyone happy!
In My Defense:
So i know not everyone knows how my living situation is so allow me to explain, this isnt to gain pity, this is just to explain.
I Live with my Father and a Family Friend in a house in a very nice area, its my only choice at the moment but im not too upset about it, i do very much love this house, but to live here i must pay $600 a month along side paying Cable/Internet BY MYSELF as im the only one that uses it for my job which has reached, last time i checked, up to $317, i rely on commissions and my gumroad projects to pay this off, if you're wondering why i am struggling this bad paying this off, and its because of my Fathers idea of "reducing stress" by having me pay rent on every Wednesday, making me pay $150 per week, forcing me to drop what im doing in the week including older commissions to get more commissions to pay off the rent, its a Sisyphus situation that he has forced me into, and ive tried to negate taking new work by dedicating some weekends to making adopts to hold the weight... only for about a %50 success rate which then also forces me to accept more commissions or face the wrath of the house, including risking an eviction, i have never stopped working on my backlog and commissions from Monday through Thursday for roughly 6-10 hours a day, taking weekends off to prevent burnout or health issue, in which weekends i have a reduced timing and much more relaxation between doing personal projects. I really hope you can Understand where im coming from
TLDR: Im Sorry for Everything around my suspension, i only had to do it because i was FORCED to, because i have to pay $150 a week for 4 weeks per month
Which is correct in technicality, but allow me to explain myself and take responsibility for the situation, so im gonna cut this up a bit
Apologies:
I do Apologize for the trouble some of you have been through while waiting for my commissions and i know seeing me accept more commissions is jarring but i swear theres a serious reason ill get into further, I didn't hide from my suspension, I in fact wore it on my chest to grow from it and do better, and i do think i can do better, and will try my damn best to do better, im still working on commissions, saving personal work and projects for weekends and so-on, ive tried to remain communicating to clients i can contact. i do not want any of you to wait too too long as its stressful to ALL of us. If im not in some health issue (which honestly has gotten better over the few months thank you) i will be working to making sure everyone happy!
In My Defense:
So i know not everyone knows how my living situation is so allow me to explain, this isnt to gain pity, this is just to explain.
I Live with my Father and a Family Friend in a house in a very nice area, its my only choice at the moment but im not too upset about it, i do very much love this house, but to live here i must pay $600 a month along side paying Cable/Internet BY MYSELF as im the only one that uses it for my job which has reached, last time i checked, up to $317, i rely on commissions and my gumroad projects to pay this off, if you're wondering why i am struggling this bad paying this off, and its because of my Fathers idea of "reducing stress" by having me pay rent on every Wednesday, making me pay $150 per week, forcing me to drop what im doing in the week including older commissions to get more commissions to pay off the rent, its a Sisyphus situation that he has forced me into, and ive tried to negate taking new work by dedicating some weekends to making adopts to hold the weight... only for about a %50 success rate which then also forces me to accept more commissions or face the wrath of the house, including risking an eviction, i have never stopped working on my backlog and commissions from Monday through Thursday for roughly 6-10 hours a day, taking weekends off to prevent burnout or health issue, in which weekends i have a reduced timing and much more relaxation between doing personal projects. I really hope you can Understand where im coming from
TLDR: Im Sorry for Everything around my suspension, i only had to do it because i was FORCED to, because i have to pay $150 a week for 4 weeks per month
Be sure to find small stuff you can feel good about, it'll carry you trough a lot of bullshit and of course,don't beat yourself up over mistakes until you can afford to do so, acknowledge it and move on, fix stuff up first!