I thought I had a second job. Well this time, one of my references torpedoed me. Please note, each of my references are saying they gave me nothing but praise. So yeah, someone is lying. Great isn't it? Either that or my principal contacted them. Either way, I'm basically at a loss. I enjoyed teaching. My supervisor told me I was good at it. Apparently not that good. I don't know what to do.

I don't think I can teach. I apparently suck at it. I know I can't teach if I live around my mother. I can't be around her. That's for me a breaking point. I can't work around her. She makes me so nervous and so worried about disappointing others that I can't do it. I can't do anything in this house, I am so unhappy here I want to die.

So right now I'm completely lost. I have no clue what to do.