Well, a lot has happened in a short time. I got into a bad fight with my sister who was incredibly drunk, and she threw me out. I've been at my mom's for the last few days... But now I'm being told to go back today, and I'm incredibly anxious about going back. I get the feeling my sister is going to want to have a "talk." By which she's going to bitch about me not having a job, which I'm trying to find one, I just haven't had any luck.

I cannot stay with my sister anymore... Her rampant alcoholism is hurting both of us. She is at the bar almost every night. She gets so drunk, she can't control her bowls. She's shit her pants in my car TWICE now. She claims I don't do anything around the house, when I'm the only one who does dishes. I don't do them they don't get done. I pick her up from the bar every time she needs me to. I will drive 60 miles round trip to pick her daughter up and take her home usually the next day because I'm guessing my niece can only stand to be around her alcoholic mother so much. This puts wear and tear on my 23 year old high mileage car. I buy and cook food, making sure there is enough for both of us but she's always at the bar, so she's too drunk to want to eat, so it all goes to waste.

So I'm trying to get out of there as soon as I can, but I don't think there's anywhere I can go. Having a dog complicates things, too.

I need some commissions. I'm also taking donations on Ko-Fi https://ko-fi.com/johnzscott

I'm going to be for sure kicked out in September anyway, as my sister wants to move out and not renew the lease.

I'm going to a temp agency Monday which could mean I could I have a job by Tuesday.

If you read all this, thank you. After this I may just stop doing artwork all together. I'm tired of dreams that will never come true.