Do you guys find me as some attention wanter or whatnot? Like when I say I feel ignored, ghosted, ect? Be honest with me. I never wanted to look like one. When it comes to feeling that way, I don't mean it as begging for attention. I've been bullied, abused, and pushed away irl a lot. I came here to fix that and make some real friends, which I did, but I've even (and still have) lost some friends here. I do admit though... a couple were my fault. But to tell the truth, I can't help but feel like garbage when I lose a friend, close or not...

Anyway... My point is, I never intended to be someone who's begging for attention. I may not know what to talk about or some don't interact with me that much, but I do what I can. I just wanna feel like I'm a real friend in their/your eyes.

And no, I didn't send this just to get unblocked by some or to complain some more. I just needed to get this off my chest and maybe heat others' opinions. Maybe even improve as a person.