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Creativity drain and other rambles.
2 years ago
This journal is about a random stuff that was floating in my mind for a while.(also very rambly)
If you been my watcher for at least a week you probably noticed I like to draw my fursona ALOT, if you click any of my galleries you will notice the sea of black and gold, lately this is bothering me a little more than usual, part of me feels like Danadriel became a bit of a creativity drain, I spend almost every single Idea I have on him, and when it's an idea involving other characters I keep bending and twisting it until I can make him fit on the scene, its almost an obscession.
"Why don't you just draw other characters?" if the solution was this simple I would not be writing this, as I said it's a bit of an obsession,and to be honest I'm probably the only one that seem to care about it, no one ever complained, and several fairly successful artists draw like the same character the whole year every single day.What ties directly in my next point, I think he represents perfectly the strange art niche I involved myself, I'm not really clean since my art have alot of curves, muscles and bulges, but Im not super horny either,in fact I hate the idea of making characters/poses and stuff that are just eye candy whores for the audience, I think its cheap and atracts alot of brain dead coomers,and when it comes to that, I took special care when drawing my sona, if you noticed his poses/scenes are not the typical "thicc dommy mommy" stuff you find everywhere, and I'm proud of that, I do it because I like this way...but living in this limbo probably has steep cost in terms of popularity in the long run...I truly walk in the edge of the razor, too clean to be horny, too horny to be clean...omg the struggle is real! :U
Another thing that was bothering me some months ago but I come to terms about it, is the idea my art lost its bite when it comes to risque themes like explicit noncon stuff and so on, part of me was fearing I was getting washed away by the sanitazation of the fandom, but after a lot of pondering about it I realized its a natural internal thing, my edgy art of previous years had alot of repressed teenager rage in the mixture and as I got older it just disapeared, or at least morphed in to something more elegant, if you still reading my stories you probably noticed some still grim as fuck,and I'm ok with it, confining the really bad parts of a scene to the story its ok for me.
I'm sometimes reconsidering is the idea of creating a discord server, the idea of having a place to post art and discuss stories and stuff seems neat...but I know myself, I'm a dictator when it comes to these things, its my way or the highway, would not exactly be a fair place, also would be pretty annoying to have randos joining and spamming their unfunny memes or worse shit like gore and stuff, so these are some of the reasons I'm avoiding doing it.
Finally, about the new job, it's easy, kinda boring, I can draw during most of it so I will probably reopen commissions soon.
If you been my watcher for at least a week you probably noticed I like to draw my fursona ALOT, if you click any of my galleries you will notice the sea of black and gold, lately this is bothering me a little more than usual, part of me feels like Danadriel became a bit of a creativity drain, I spend almost every single Idea I have on him, and when it's an idea involving other characters I keep bending and twisting it until I can make him fit on the scene, its almost an obscession.
"Why don't you just draw other characters?" if the solution was this simple I would not be writing this, as I said it's a bit of an obsession,and to be honest I'm probably the only one that seem to care about it, no one ever complained, and several fairly successful artists draw like the same character the whole year every single day.What ties directly in my next point, I think he represents perfectly the strange art niche I involved myself, I'm not really clean since my art have alot of curves, muscles and bulges, but Im not super horny either,in fact I hate the idea of making characters/poses and stuff that are just eye candy whores for the audience, I think its cheap and atracts alot of brain dead coomers,and when it comes to that, I took special care when drawing my sona, if you noticed his poses/scenes are not the typical "thicc dommy mommy" stuff you find everywhere, and I'm proud of that, I do it because I like this way...but living in this limbo probably has steep cost in terms of popularity in the long run...I truly walk in the edge of the razor, too clean to be horny, too horny to be clean...omg the struggle is real! :U
Another thing that was bothering me some months ago but I come to terms about it, is the idea my art lost its bite when it comes to risque themes like explicit noncon stuff and so on, part of me was fearing I was getting washed away by the sanitazation of the fandom, but after a lot of pondering about it I realized its a natural internal thing, my edgy art of previous years had alot of repressed teenager rage in the mixture and as I got older it just disapeared, or at least morphed in to something more elegant, if you still reading my stories you probably noticed some still grim as fuck,and I'm ok with it, confining the really bad parts of a scene to the story its ok for me.
I'm sometimes reconsidering is the idea of creating a discord server, the idea of having a place to post art and discuss stories and stuff seems neat...but I know myself, I'm a dictator when it comes to these things, its my way or the highway, would not exactly be a fair place, also would be pretty annoying to have randos joining and spamming their unfunny memes or worse shit like gore and stuff, so these are some of the reasons I'm avoiding doing it.
Finally, about the new job, it's easy, kinda boring, I can draw during most of it so I will probably reopen commissions soon.
As for Discord, that's up to you, not sure what else to say but good luck
I've been wrestling with worldbuilding as opposed to popularity posting too. I could probably grow my own profile if I stuck to drawing chubby ladies instead of juggling seven different interconnected worlds. But I don't want fan service to take over what I really want to do.
I'm really trying to find a place for posting and socializing sind DA is burning to the ground. If you can find a good space let me know.