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I Want To Do So Much!
2 years ago
I think it's kind of obvious at this point that I've been fooling around with these characters for a long time now. I've published one of the stories I wrote but even though it's really long, that doesn't even feel like a fraction of what I want to do with them. That's just one story. I love thinking about these characters.
I have a giant Google Doc that sounds so many pages going over how Lucy and Marshall met in college together, what they were like before, how they became friends, how they fall in love, how they hang out, how they get used to each other, open up to each other, where they go in the future, all kind of things. I've gotten a feel for their characters. Lucy is a girl who's confident and unashamed of who she is, but felt lonely and like nobody got her until she met Marshall. Marshall is anxious and is way less confident and more ashamed of himself, but loves being with others and lifting them up.
I love thinking of little scenarios and stories where they help each other and learn to become better people and lovers for each other, while facing other small challenges like finding time to be together and how they want to live life together. I want their relationship to be happy and wholesome, and so instead of the conflict being fighting and being upset at each other, I enjoy making them work together to figure out their inner issues or issues around them together.
There is legitimately a story they have together. Blanket Fort was just one little segment I pulled out that could work on its own. All of the pictures I draw of them, I put some level of thought into where they are on my timeline, and that timeline isn't even fully fledged out. The timeline isn't referring to when I released them btw, I meant the story timeline.
Most drawings I do are after they've spent lots of time together and have been open and talked to each other. Later points in their relationship where, for example, Marshall is less anxious and more into their activities. Though I also like creating drawings earlier in the timeline sometimes, and I might do ones far in the future if I am able to mentally flesh it out more.
This isn't even counting other stories with other characters I'm thinking of. I just wrote a story of two completely different characters. Long distance buddies who fall for each other while one of them is visiting, and I feel like there's a whole world to think about there too. Their characters are completely different from Lucy and Marshall but I also still tried to make them wholesome and fun.
Anyway, I just wanted to write this to vent. I have so many ideas, so much I want to release into the world, I just don't feel I have the proper skills or time for them! It would take so long for me to write everything into like, a giant novel, let alone create it as a visual webcomic or something, which is what I'd rather do because I'd rather be able to see them. I feel like I'm not good enough at drawing yet to really fully communicate everything I'd want to and just in general. I don't have the money to get someone else to do it for me lol. And plus, not only is this not the only thing I'm doing in life, obviously, but this isn't even my only creative hobby, I have another one that also takes LOADS of my free time, even more than making furry art.
I mean I'm still young. I still have loads of life left to create things. I guess it's just hard to cope because I want to release it all now and I can't. I just have so much I want to do but not enough of whatever to do it all. I hope I find a way. :P