it's not something I want to get into detail about publicly, but a few days ago something really awful happened, and on top of everything else that's been happening to me, it's left me feeling pretty despondent

but privately, my friends have been very supportive and understanding of me. and publicly, that short story I posted seems to be pretty well liked. I've even seen some people faving it who don't seem to read much of this site's writing otherwise. it's silly, given it's just some horny fluff, but even something small like that makes me feel valued, like I'm doing something right

anyone who looks at my art as a whole probably can tell that the bulk of my inspiration comes from idealism and hope. despite the awful world we find ourselves in, I want the work I create to be a spot of comfort and happiness, no matter how small

maybe I shouldn't indulge so much in escapist fantasy. every day I feel more despair welling up inside of me, and I feel like my coping mechanism does little more than box me in. but I see that my work is valued, and it keeps me a little hopeful that I matter in some way. I know as unhealthy as it can be if it's all we do, we all need a break from the bad things in our life every once in a while

so thank you, for making me feel valued and cared for. and I hope that someone in your life helps you feel the same, whether you just had a bad day, or you're having the worst few years of your life

I think I'll be okay, eventually. don't worry too much about me. I probably won't bring this up again. I just appreciate you all