I've been thinkin' a lot abt my 'issues' today ( especially the 'scared of developing relationships' prob) n' it all takes me back to those dark contemptible yrs of verbal abuse :( it was so appalling that it's bcome a mayor factor in who i am today. but yeah, i'm afraid to get hurt n'/or being rejected. . . In other words, i'm scared of ppl being scared of me^^ lolz (which when u put it that way, sounds kinda cute X3 ) Bu it still doesn't change the fact that i'd rather block out the negative (i know there is ) n choose to c the Good in humankind I don't want a world of strife, fear. hate/contempt but one of peace. love, compassion, freedom, heart( w/e u all know wha i mean) i need to let go of that pain/suffering n walk ahead (i won't find Love if i don't surrender myself to it) ...it was so hard... n' it's still hard (not asmuch as b4 but still) Yo c que hay gente y hay Gente, pero prefiero tener Fe en la Humanidad! To b continued...