The number of times I would deny myself a bit of fun because there'd always be somebody who was like "you're doing it wrong" or "that ain't it, try this instead" has surely made me into that kind of person who would likely stay silent during any group conversations.

All because now that I listened to someone and "did it the right way", I lack expertise to hold lengthy colorful conversations, making myself awkwardly stare and smile at others. Whereas those same people will have zero trouble doing that since they've seen that movie and it was hilariously bad or played that game and it was booooring. The result: they get more points in social interactions, and I, uh, go back home being convinced in my inability to socialize.

Hits harder when you're a shy introvert. Imagine having enough energy to go into the wild only once a month where one failed attempt will automatically waste that said month.

The moment I stopped following people's recommendations on how to have fun and what media to consume, I became a lot calmer and happier. And that somehow made it easier for me to find people of similar interests (because those interests were not forced on me as I gained them myself!)

Not directed at anyone or any situation in particular. Just realized that I've had this happen to me too many times during my entire life until I found myself one day watching that hilariously bad movie and playing that stupid boring video game.

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