hello there!

last time i admitted that gardening was consuming my life, now, that's still a real thing that's happening, but due to winter it got too cold most of the time to be outside. i still go and check my plants, i planted a bunch of chards and they should be ready soon!

so the days i couldn't get outside to check on the plants, i found myself crafting several things

i got a bunch of paper, from the voting bills that litter the city on voting season. so I'm learning to make paper baskets, i finished a big one, its all wonky but it was really neat making it!
so I'm now hoarding paper to make more rolls to make more baskets
at the same time, i expanded my plarn collection (plastic bag yarn) and I'm processing a bunch of bags, i also made some twine with the plastic bags, but making it takes a big toll in my hands, so i rather just do more plarn instead XD

basket making has been really beautiful!
i bet it would be even more beautiful to make baskets with actual basket material

on the glass course, I'm learning to make moulds for other glass pieces, in ceramic, and i think there is a small conspiracy between my family, where they convince me to make a ceramics course next year
for example, my aunt gifted me a pack of ceramic estecas (i think they are sticks with different shapes, not sure of the translation). mom has been showing me videos of ceramic makings, and she and dad gifted me a handmade ceramic mug, remarking how cute ceramic things look and how they could be something i can do to sell
so i guess I'm doing a ceramics course next year XD

why i have been crafting so many things tho?
well, one part of me realized it might be a way to cope with real life
is not an unfounded thought tho, since i realized, whenever i am not doing anything, or idling too much, i get depressed, and lose all willpower to do anything, and so i do nothing, and i get depressed worse, and it spirals down very very fast.

so i have to keep myself doing something with my hands constantly!
i am trying to play some games too, at least to keep me distracted, but the lack of willpower to play anything makes it really hard to do anything that isn't solitaire.

it feels like is all a quest to keep me busy constantly!
at least i know that keeping me entertained helps me deal with life a little bit better.
but that sometimes makes me feel bad, because I'm only doing small useless decorations, and not actually doing something useful, like drawing, it does give a fair share of more reasons to be depressed. everything is very, very hard to deal with... but at least I'm trying!


spring is starting, and you can see it in every plant! and sometimes the warmer days
so its time to start getting ready to go outside and go full on gardening again!
(and brace myself for over 40C days)


also, a bit random but here is a pic of a terrarium i made with an old lightbulb i found
https://twitter.com/RhunenStaldrad/.....89357764763860


that's all i have to tell for now.
I'm becoming a weird being made of physical and mental pain who can only exist if they are continuously crafting small things XD

how about all of you ? ^W^
how are you all doing? ^W^

i really wish all of you are fine, and that life has been kind for all of you <3

thankyou all for reading my small life update, i wish you all the best , stay safe <3 <3 <3