I came on here on the internet for three years
Just to cope with my fucking life.
I got to honest my life is pretty bad and tbh I have been suffering and been struggling with depression with my whole life and being here is a way to cope with it
I have no job I only rely on commissions
No friends
My family is abusive
It’s been hard trying to talk to people
Broke and struggled to pay rent
Depressed and suicidal
People leaving me because on my actions
People I want to understand how I feel don’t care
I mean I can’t seem to tell how exactly people could help me because it’s just hard to say because I’m nervous on the reaction they will get when I said
Tbh all I do here is talk and post art
People seem to be interested in it but not the artist itself
Chatting has been very difficult here
Making friends here has been very hard and stressful that they block me or just stop talking in general
Plus I have done terrible things in the past before I joined and I’m scared to tell or talk about it with anyone because I’m nervous on what the people reactions and what they will do like betray me or expose me to get me cancelled
I’m just scared and nervous and depressed and I want the paint to go away