I honestly couldn't be bothered to make up a fancy title for this

Hell, I don't even know where to begin with.

You ever reach a point in your life where you're just tired of going through all the same crap over and over and over and over again, every day, that you just wanna go to sleep forever?

Like you at least wanna try something new but you're either too scared or lazy to do it? So you're just stuck in a constant loop?

It's pretty much been like that for me for some time now.

Wake up, check out Discord and YouTube on my phone, boot up my desktop, browse the web, YouTube, Discord, DeviantART, Furaffinity, etc, do art or play games, maybe just pace around the house listening to music on my phone, maybe just step outside for a minute or two, fall asleep, rinse and repeat.

Maybe something happens that'll get me out of the house but depending on what that is, maybe I'll enjoy it, or I'd rather be at home doing my daily routine.

And even then, I'll probably be grinding through the same games I've been playing since the past year or so, like Forza Horizon, or any other racing games, which sucks cause I love racing games, primarily arcade racers which there haven't been much of in recent years, outside of Hot Wheels Unleashed 2, which I am excited for and it comes out next week.

But even then, eventually I'll get bored of that and I'll get stuck waiting the next few years for another installment or at least another game that'll help cure my boredom...and its just the same thing again and again and again.

This next thing may sound a bit off topic but bear with me.

Does anybody really like cliffhangers? Like at all?

Like yeah, they're made to hype people up for what comes next, but over time, you'd probably feel pissed off cause you have to *wait* until the next chapter/book/movie/game, etc, which might take days, or weeks, or months, or years, etc. And by the time the next installment comes out, it just leads to *another* cliffhanger or it's just ends in a very unsatisfying way that just makes you think: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ovm1J_AxLQ

For instance, I've been invested in  mastergodai's Knuckle Up comic since last year, maybe the year before?? And even though I'm not a fan of one of the major plot points, I still can't get my mind off it. But my gripe is that it takes ages for a new page to show up.
Now, I did find a comment by the colourist of the comic explaining his *many* IRL issues for the past few years, hence why until now updates have taken almost a whole year per page. Updates have become much more frequent now and I do hope everything's working out for them.

And there's this recent anthro Spyro comic Star of the Dawn over on DA (https://www.deviantart.com/harclite/art/comic-Spyro-and-The-star-of-the-Dawn-chapter-1-979926213) which has been uploading daily which caught my attention...up until the most recent page that is. You'll probably see why.

Now why am I bringing up these two comics which have absolutely nothing in common?

Because there are barely any other comics like them for me to be invested in.

I remember Legend of Spyro comics were EVERYWHERE in DA. Heck, it was because of Legend of Spyro fanfictions that helped me discover DA. But nowadays, it's basically a ghost town, and hardly anybody does a Spyro comic where everybody are anthros, but then there's this one thing about it that just irks me the wrong way.

And Knuckle Up has been drilled into my head so much that I keep thinking of batshit crazy twists and theories that could retcon the shit out of everything, since that would be more in line of the comic's tone than some boring "talk-no-justu" speech or whatever.

Which is actually pretty much what I do for most other things that I've been invested in. Imagining crazy plots, ideas and theories, etc.

Which honestly does distract me from doing art like commission work for instance.

I mean sure there may be other comics for me to read or other movies to watch or games to play, but so many of them hardly ever scratch that particular itch of mine. It's pretty much why I prefer arcade racers like Burnout or retro shooters like DOOM and not games like Gran Turismo or Call of Duty, cause either A. They're the same thing over and over again, B. It's just not enough to satiate my ADHD fueled monkey brain, or C. There's just one or more glaring things that just pushes me away.

Yes I am very stubborn when it comes to stuff like this and that's pretty much my problem.

Hardly anything grabs my attention enough nowadays, and I'm just stuck in an endless loop of waiting and waiting and waiting until something comes up...and then back to waiting for ages again.

Anyways, sorry about the long rambling, this sort of thing has been circling in my head for ages now.

I don't mean any ill will to any of the people mentioned above, I'm sure they're all very busy and want to put in as much effort as they want.

Again, I didn't want to start some shit, I just wanted to really get this all out of my chest.