Hiii

Since I've mostly talked about it elsewhere I shall inform the people who are only here

Its kind of a meme I obsessively try to improve Emberflame at every opportunity in a way like the boy who cried wolf

But with my mental issues significantly clearing up I am hoping to try and stop this endless cycle of updating Emberflame all the time

So here we are updating Emberflame again, or am I?

Yeah. Honestly.

I don't intend to do another lengthy bio for her, the short one I have now is just fine with minor tweaks

But considering how scattered peoples knowledge on her is, which is my fault, I am going to try and put everything here to clear up stuff

Soooo...

Emberflame is no longer trying to befriend everyone. It was hopeless from the start but one friend pointing out she wouldn't be able to form meaningful friendships on top of the issue of trying to be neutral with two parties that hate each other, yeah.

I've also allowed some of her more negative traits, which I base a lot off myself, to finally just exist. Hot blooded (literal and otherwise), possessive over others, egoistic, dramatic/flashy, attention needy, a bit air headed, naiveish, you get the point

She's no longer always friendly and much moreso is prone to starting problems, worsening them, and missing simple or easy solutions because didn't think of it.

I've had people tell me she has some real depth now. Which is gratifying. I've been nervous to do a lot of this cause of aforementioned mental issues. It's hard when you're scared of being assertive, or looking like a godmodder, or just pissing people off when you didn't mean to

It's a slow process. I've been trying to break through a lot of mental blockages now that my mind is so much clearer. A lot of boundary testing and such, but I'm hoping to avoid past mistakes and even moreso my tendency to go towards extremes. Which is what usually causes me to update Ember because oops.

Speaking of God mod... I have accepted that Emberflame simply is a kitsune-no-kami

A fully powerful long lived fox goddess of fire. Who's still very much a goof off and ignorant of a lot.

Also quite voracious.

Whats more apparent now than ever is I'm letting her cause problems instead of cowering at the idea of causing one and having to fix it.

For those who read my Clearspring Finale, the new attitude does show there, if restrained some. She's still physically affectionate and such, but I'm letting her just be more of a person metaphorically. She makes mistakes, she's not trying to be always good, and she's not perfect.

It's been a lot of thinking these past few weeks. A lot of challenging what I believe in and seeing the obvious flaws I never noticed or willfully ignored.

Emberflame is not all powerful nor does she claim to be except for her chosen element of fire. Creation gods, or things like the Ascians of FF14 are above her in sheer scale of ability. But I don't want to do combat stuff much anyway.

Emberflame is meant to be OP, but I never saw that she could have challenge beyond combat. Reading about one punch man opened my mind a lot in that regard. The tunnel vision is finally over.

That and stupid stuff like people asking "why doesn't she eat her opponents if it's so op" and I never considered she may be bored of it or just not in the mood. And boredom is something she can't stand.

It all kinda meshes so much better now.

My sweetheart  SoftFoxxo has been super supportive as well ❤️

But yes

Now that I'm finally getting better mentally

I hope I can end this cycle of constantly changing Emberflame too so she can settle and grow like she should.