To be left alone in old age without support and means of livelihood. Because of my disability, no one hires me, refusing me on far-fetched pretexts, and it's even difficult for me to walk. In this state, you can't start a family, and your conscience won't let you burden someone with yourself. When my parents leave, I'll be left with emptiness and suffering, since disability pensions are only enough to pay for communal services. As an atheist, I couldn't even take me to a monastery. Perhaps only writing will save me.