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Status Update and Mental Health
2 years ago
Hiya, everyone! I hope November has been treating you all very well. This journal may be a long one, so I'd understand if you're not much of a reader and skim. I will appreciate those who do read through it though 💚
I know I haven't been around as much as normal, so maybe a few of you are wondering what's up? Well.. it's a few things. I won't get into all of them since some are touchy.
I haven't been having the greatest few months, and it definitely shows. I don't update my FA to my regular routine, and I've slowed with getting back to people, even friends. This isn't just on FA, but this branches out to my in-person endeavors. I've tried to bypass it last month saying I'm okay and fine, but I've realized going into November that I still wasn't okay. I've been trying to get better, so I hope all of you understand that I'm going through something I don't know how to fix, much less understand. And, I sincerely apologize to all of those waiting on art for me.
I don't know if this is a depression thing or just a bad moment in my life. I've never really considered myself to be a depressed individual, and thinking about mental health gets me all worked up. I'm thinking a part of my struggles has to do with the fact that I'm not getting mental health help when I used to. (It's a long story that I won't get into) So, it's left anxiety and all that nasty stuff to roam my mind 24/7. I've been trying to work on it.
The other thing, unfortunately, is burnout. I'm definitely feeling it and it's scary that I have to force myself to draw. Art is my passion, and I hate nothing more when I have to force myself to make something. I'm still drawing, but it's been very slow. Some days I draw more, but I get extremely tired after only a few hours.
So, I'm not gonna be taking anymore projects or commissions for awhile. The reasons why are vast, but this is a huge factor. (I know the stare Ychs are beloved by all. I'll figure something out for them) I've been passionately drawing since the beginning of this year and only now, burnout, it seemed to hit me. And, it hit me hard..
There's more plaguing me, but I won't go that deep. I already kinda put a lot out here. But, I just wanted to give a progress update on art and myself. I'll probably be doing things that make me happier like having a Happy Thanksgiving later on, listening to the new AJR album, playing Kingdom Hearts, and etc. I hope this will continue to heal whatever is getting at me.
If you read this far, thank you. I hope the rest of the year will be great for all of us~
I know I haven't been around as much as normal, so maybe a few of you are wondering what's up? Well.. it's a few things. I won't get into all of them since some are touchy.
I haven't been having the greatest few months, and it definitely shows. I don't update my FA to my regular routine, and I've slowed with getting back to people, even friends. This isn't just on FA, but this branches out to my in-person endeavors. I've tried to bypass it last month saying I'm okay and fine, but I've realized going into November that I still wasn't okay. I've been trying to get better, so I hope all of you understand that I'm going through something I don't know how to fix, much less understand. And, I sincerely apologize to all of those waiting on art for me.
I don't know if this is a depression thing or just a bad moment in my life. I've never really considered myself to be a depressed individual, and thinking about mental health gets me all worked up. I'm thinking a part of my struggles has to do with the fact that I'm not getting mental health help when I used to. (It's a long story that I won't get into) So, it's left anxiety and all that nasty stuff to roam my mind 24/7. I've been trying to work on it.
The other thing, unfortunately, is burnout. I'm definitely feeling it and it's scary that I have to force myself to draw. Art is my passion, and I hate nothing more when I have to force myself to make something. I'm still drawing, but it's been very slow. Some days I draw more, but I get extremely tired after only a few hours.
So, I'm not gonna be taking anymore projects or commissions for awhile. The reasons why are vast, but this is a huge factor. (I know the stare Ychs are beloved by all. I'll figure something out for them) I've been passionately drawing since the beginning of this year and only now, burnout, it seemed to hit me. And, it hit me hard..
There's more plaguing me, but I won't go that deep. I already kinda put a lot out here. But, I just wanted to give a progress update on art and myself. I'll probably be doing things that make me happier like having a Happy Thanksgiving later on, listening to the new AJR album, playing Kingdom Hearts, and etc. I hope this will continue to heal whatever is getting at me.
If you read this far, thank you. I hope the rest of the year will be great for all of us~
Giving a gentle hug in return
It's alright. I'm still thinking about everything and maybe I need to cut back on some projects. I know quite a few people have been in my queue, but I'm getting too overwhelmed knowing that people are waiting
I'm working on myself thankfully, and I'm gonna be enjoying tomorrow because Thanksgiving <3
Thank you as well for checking in. It means a lot to me
I've been spending a lot of my time alone, which may not be so good, but I've been doing hobbies that comfort me and let me kinda get away from everything and everyone. Friends help of course, but sometimes they're not always available, and sometimes I'm in a bad mood.. no one should see me unstable like that
But, maybe I should talk to you more. I've been needing to in all honesty hah. Maybe what I need is someone to just be there. Idk though, feelings are confusing
<3
Mental health is a fickle thing, true. I have a project that has a set deadline, so it's the only thing I've really been pushing myself to do. Otherwise I'm just kinda lethargic to start drawing.
Thank you for being here <3