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This is a journal about trans experience and stuff, if you not interested on it feel free to skip it.
For those unaware, I'm currently on the 7th month of my DIY MtF hormonal replacement therapy, and things are going way better than expecting, I will not give details about my body for privacy sake, but I'm seeing changes that were not expected for someone of my age, I'm trhilled!
One of the changes I was expecting were the emotional ones, I was afraid I would change so much I would not recognize myself anymore, in the first months I felt the ups and downs of the hormones, some of the downs were particularly nasty and I had to struggle to keep going, but as time passed I got used to it, but recently something really changed on my mind, a switched was flipped out of the sudden.I became a tad more irritable, and sensitive to some topics, specially discussions involving sexual violence and stuff, it feels like sudden sting now its weird, not just that but also feel a growing regret involving some non/dubious consent pieces I drew in the past and recently...I feel a bit of an asshole for drawing/writing them to be 100% honest and that the watchers that left because of said pieces had a good point, I like my edgy stuff, I love to write about Danadriel being a violent,petty and spiteful bitch...but I feel like I went tone deaf in certain topics, Im not sure yet.
Another curious change I recently had in my life is that I essentially don't have libido anymore, my mind is not clouded by horny stuff anymore...wich is interesting, I had fear it would remove the spice from my art, yet my style is unchanged, I draw my curvy characters in dubiously crafted outfits as I always did, I just have no interest on drawing them having sex, wich is fine it was never my strong suit anyway.
Yet I feel something is really different on my art, yet I can't pinpoint what exactly! I keep comparing pieces and so on but I never find it, if you noticed something different please tell me!
I feel like didn't conclude anything with this text, but I was feeling the need to write about it somewhere.
For those unaware, I'm currently on the 7th month of my DIY MtF hormonal replacement therapy, and things are going way better than expecting, I will not give details about my body for privacy sake, but I'm seeing changes that were not expected for someone of my age, I'm trhilled!
One of the changes I was expecting were the emotional ones, I was afraid I would change so much I would not recognize myself anymore, in the first months I felt the ups and downs of the hormones, some of the downs were particularly nasty and I had to struggle to keep going, but as time passed I got used to it, but recently something really changed on my mind, a switched was flipped out of the sudden.I became a tad more irritable, and sensitive to some topics, specially discussions involving sexual violence and stuff, it feels like sudden sting now its weird, not just that but also feel a growing regret involving some non/dubious consent pieces I drew in the past and recently...I feel a bit of an asshole for drawing/writing them to be 100% honest and that the watchers that left because of said pieces had a good point, I like my edgy stuff, I love to write about Danadriel being a violent,petty and spiteful bitch...but I feel like I went tone deaf in certain topics, Im not sure yet.
Another curious change I recently had in my life is that I essentially don't have libido anymore, my mind is not clouded by horny stuff anymore...wich is interesting, I had fear it would remove the spice from my art, yet my style is unchanged, I draw my curvy characters in dubiously crafted outfits as I always did, I just have no interest on drawing them having sex, wich is fine it was never my strong suit anyway.
Yet I feel something is really different on my art, yet I can't pinpoint what exactly! I keep comparing pieces and so on but I never find it, if you noticed something different please tell me!
I feel like didn't conclude anything with this text, but I was feeling the need to write about it somewhere.
Alex-Kitsune
~alex-kitsune
good to hear it's going relatively smoothly. hope you have a good holiday, me, I have to work at 7 tomorrow at wal mart so I'm going to go nuts
Danadriel
~danilocorrea
OP
Happy holidays for you, but I think it's a bit late for me to say good luck. :U
Alex-Kitsune
~alex-kitsune
I survived, but thanks regardless. Back at work and thankfully I missed the boxing day rush since we did the sales for the 20th-27th, so yay
OthellaTheDragoness
~othellathedragoness
good to hear things are going smoothly, though it does sound like the hormonal balance shifting, is kind of, centralised I guess? least that seems logical to me, I ain't no biologist x3 but proud of ye anyway Dana'. :3
Danadriel
~danilocorrea
OP
nwn
hughie522
~hughie522
Thanks for the update ;).
sikfock666
~sikfock666
Fascinating to hear the changes in how things strike you on an emotional level, and how they effect you. A very interesting insight into your journey. Quite the adventure! I hope it continues to be an overall positive thing. Best of luck moving forward!
Danadriel
~danilocorrea
OP
Thanks!
