Yesterday night, a mere 2 days after Christmas, I experienced something that I never experienced before: an hours-long episode of depression. I tried very hard to contain it, but it was no use. I was shivering and sobbing uncontrollably and I couldn’t find out why I was so sad as I had know way of finding an answer. I had no idea if I was developing bipolar disorder or other kind of depression-related disorder. I was sobbing uncontrollably for at least 2 hours and my family was comforting me the whole time and it didn’t stop until my paternal grandfather came to help me calm down. I also normally take medications prescribed to me due to my autism, including one that I recently found out helps with general anxiety and depression, but because my family was so busy during the holiday season, they hadn’t helped me refill my pill box and I hadn’t been taking them. Because I take multiple medications, I have trouble finding the right medications. I also experienced a brief episode today, so I definitely need some help regarding my mental health in this situation and to figure out the ultimate cause of it.