Still struggling. Feeling damn near invisible to most people in my life. Most. I'm not saying all, and it's mostly irl people or people I've known a long time. Cousins growing up and all that. Not hearing from your maid of honor or your supposed friend since highschool. Whys it so damn hard to make friends as an adult. It's got some very dark thoughts swirling in my head so I'm trying to avoid alone time which is usually the last thing I'd ever want. But when I'm like this I can't typically be alone. Or rather shouldn't. But. Anyway. Im lurking.