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Another Milestone, Another Moment Of Dread
2 years ago
As of this month, I'll have had my main art tool for a decade.
I originally purchased my Samsung Galaxy Note 10.1 2014 Edition as a replacement for a dead laptop. It wasn't long until I discovered the efficiency and flexibility of the onboard S-Pen, mostly thanks to my girlfriend
se7en77 having the phone version and showing me all the good stuff it could do.
I've been using the same S-Pen, with a couple dozen of replacement nibs and another couple dozen in reserve. Also only just last year replaced the battery, a feat I never want to repeat. Still using an outdated version of AutoDesk Sketchbook that I can't let go of.
That being said, I've also been losing a lot of drive to keep on doing artwork. It's been a rough couple of months for me, and I don't see things getting much better in the way of inspiration and creativity.
A phrase has been repeating in my mind, intrusively. That my work might not be very talented, but people just want to see more of the themes and topics I explore. That I should continue to add to the zeitgeist of the furry and kink art fandoms. That folks don't care if my art is as good or worth their time as someone else's, but that they just want more art to digest.
I don't know if I want to keep providing it if that's the only way I can justify it existing.
I originally purchased my Samsung Galaxy Note 10.1 2014 Edition as a replacement for a dead laptop. It wasn't long until I discovered the efficiency and flexibility of the onboard S-Pen, mostly thanks to my girlfriend
se7en77 having the phone version and showing me all the good stuff it could do.I've been using the same S-Pen, with a couple dozen of replacement nibs and another couple dozen in reserve. Also only just last year replaced the battery, a feat I never want to repeat. Still using an outdated version of AutoDesk Sketchbook that I can't let go of.
That being said, I've also been losing a lot of drive to keep on doing artwork. It's been a rough couple of months for me, and I don't see things getting much better in the way of inspiration and creativity.
A phrase has been repeating in my mind, intrusively. That my work might not be very talented, but people just want to see more of the themes and topics I explore. That I should continue to add to the zeitgeist of the furry and kink art fandoms. That folks don't care if my art is as good or worth their time as someone else's, but that they just want more art to digest.
I don't know if I want to keep providing it if that's the only way I can justify it existing.
Now that I've gained a lot of new responsibilities in my job, I've lost that drive. The money is good but it's really draining me.
So yes, I should try to not push myself too hard.