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2024 sucks--what's going on
2 years ago
visit the link below to my new webstore Chakat Windshear's Wares to see what Japanese dojins, artwork, prints, fanzines, comics, merchandise and more that I may have listed for sale.
https://www.windshearswares.com
we can be also found auctioning at https://www.thedealersden.com/store.....ndshears-wares
https://www.windshearswares.com
we can be also found auctioning at https://www.thedealersden.com/store.....ndshears-wares
yeah 2024 has really been horrible for me thus far. I would like to go back please.
Things were starting to look up at end of 2023, website sales picked up and I was making good progress on updates. Then Jan 1 the wheels fell off. I ended 2023 and started 2024 with 4 days of no heat because of problems with water heater, which was running radiant heat system. got a reliable outfit in to fix and they started finding problems, first the pressure regulator in my incoming water line was bad, they measured my pressure at 125psi and it should have been 75-80 psi so that caused problems. They got to fixing that and looked at my other system which I thought was just AC but turned out to be a heat pump. The whole system was not in great shape and not only that they found mold in the ductwork from the blower, they showed me a picture it was just not mold but so thick it looked like moss. They told me they could fix mold and get system working but it would be 6000.00 and they couldn't guarantee system would stay running for a long time. I made decision to replace whole thing with a good system that had extra purifiers (my 82 year old mother has COPD) . That along with plumbing repair set me back 20000.00. I found out then that my favorite Aunt had very aggressive breast cancer and was having super bad reactions to chemo. as this was weighing upon me I went to a specialist for neuropathy in my feet as I was having bad problems. After a bunch of testing the doctor told me how bad it was, that it was so bad I was coming close to having my feet amputated. Which made me feel wonderful because there was a poster in room that said people who have an amputation because of this on average die within 1-2 years. I opted for the treatments of course but it set me back 10000.00 and is not covered by insurance so now only a week into Jan. and I am down 30000.00. I am like what else can happen, which was stupidest thing I could say, as a week later I find out that my Aunt with cancer's son, my cousin who was suffering from bad depression, accidentally killed himself after he fell off the wagon.
That crushed me as I should have seen the signs in his facebook postings but I wasn't checking facebook at the time due to other crap going on. I saw it afterwards as I have been there before but I was too late. It was too much. I broke down. For a few days I couldn't get out of bed and rarely ate. I stared at the wall for hours and let my duties to the website lapse. I was really hoping I just wouldn't wake up.
I've been slowly climbing back thanks mainly to my friend
thriceborn Chakat Thriceborn who was willing to listen to me and make me realize that I had to go on. To my customers who placed orders and got their items delivered very late I know this is no excuse, I only hope I can somehow make it up to them for their patience.
Depression is no joke, I have been taking meds for it for years but they don't always work as evidenced by my Jan. It's not easy seeking help due to stigma attached to it but if you can't get professional help try to at least have a friend who listens to you and doesn't judge, it goes a long way.
I am sorry for rambling I just thought that if I get this out it may help a bit.
I will be making a much more upbeat journal soon dealing with Anthrocon 2024 and some possible nice surprises that may happen. Until then everyone try to be well.
Things were starting to look up at end of 2023, website sales picked up and I was making good progress on updates. Then Jan 1 the wheels fell off. I ended 2023 and started 2024 with 4 days of no heat because of problems with water heater, which was running radiant heat system. got a reliable outfit in to fix and they started finding problems, first the pressure regulator in my incoming water line was bad, they measured my pressure at 125psi and it should have been 75-80 psi so that caused problems. They got to fixing that and looked at my other system which I thought was just AC but turned out to be a heat pump. The whole system was not in great shape and not only that they found mold in the ductwork from the blower, they showed me a picture it was just not mold but so thick it looked like moss. They told me they could fix mold and get system working but it would be 6000.00 and they couldn't guarantee system would stay running for a long time. I made decision to replace whole thing with a good system that had extra purifiers (my 82 year old mother has COPD) . That along with plumbing repair set me back 20000.00. I found out then that my favorite Aunt had very aggressive breast cancer and was having super bad reactions to chemo. as this was weighing upon me I went to a specialist for neuropathy in my feet as I was having bad problems. After a bunch of testing the doctor told me how bad it was, that it was so bad I was coming close to having my feet amputated. Which made me feel wonderful because there was a poster in room that said people who have an amputation because of this on average die within 1-2 years. I opted for the treatments of course but it set me back 10000.00 and is not covered by insurance so now only a week into Jan. and I am down 30000.00. I am like what else can happen, which was stupidest thing I could say, as a week later I find out that my Aunt with cancer's son, my cousin who was suffering from bad depression, accidentally killed himself after he fell off the wagon.
That crushed me as I should have seen the signs in his facebook postings but I wasn't checking facebook at the time due to other crap going on. I saw it afterwards as I have been there before but I was too late. It was too much. I broke down. For a few days I couldn't get out of bed and rarely ate. I stared at the wall for hours and let my duties to the website lapse. I was really hoping I just wouldn't wake up.
I've been slowly climbing back thanks mainly to my friend
thriceborn Chakat Thriceborn who was willing to listen to me and make me realize that I had to go on. To my customers who placed orders and got their items delivered very late I know this is no excuse, I only hope I can somehow make it up to them for their patience.Depression is no joke, I have been taking meds for it for years but they don't always work as evidenced by my Jan. It's not easy seeking help due to stigma attached to it but if you can't get professional help try to at least have a friend who listens to you and doesn't judge, it goes a long way.
I am sorry for rambling I just thought that if I get this out it may help a bit.
I will be making a much more upbeat journal soon dealing with Anthrocon 2024 and some possible nice surprises that may happen. Until then everyone try to be well.
