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2 years ago
February already huh.
Yikes.
I figured I would use the lunar new year as an excuse to post a journal and update people. It's a mixed bag - honestly, my life anthem is the chorus from Tubthumping and I wish I didn't mean that as much as I do.
Things seem to settle and then shit gets stupid again, and this last year kicked me in the teeth.
My dad has been diagnosed with terminal cancer. It's pretty world shaking and honestly scary. I've taken him to immunotherapy and chemo, and unfortunately A&E more than once. We aren't sure how long he has but the doctors are clear it is palliative care. The original prognosis was 1 year. We are trying to make the most of the time we have and are going through legal processes so I have power of attorney along with my stepmum and will be the executor of his will.
Whilst we've been dealing with this, my partner lost his job last year as the company he worked for went under. 8 Months of unemployment put a lot of financial pressure on me, but thankfully he has now got a job and is back to having a regular paycheque.
Surprising nobody I am sure, I have struggled with my mental health these last 7/8 months.
While not in the pits of it anymore, I am not as resilient at the moment as I would normally consider myself. It's kinda why I have dipped out everywhere.
With all this going on, I have been trying to think of things in terms of opportunities for practicing gratitude. I am grateful I have a family I love, despite all its complications. I am grateful I have a career that has kept us fed with a roof over our heads, even with unplanned expenses from car repairs! I am grateful to my friends who have checked up on me and also let me have space when I have wanted it.
I am grateful that I have art as a distraction and outlet, so in turn I am grateful for you.
While I haven't shared a lot of art recently, I do have a personal piece I am working on that I am hoping will be finished soon - it is taking me ages haha! I have to take it easy because of RSI. Outside of digital art I have experimented with sourdough bread making (my starter is staring at me as I type haha) and I have been making small tufted rugs! And when I don't have the spoons for any of it I have been playing League of Legends as the true cretin I am.
So yeah. That's where I am.
I have thought about making an update for a while, but it's just hard you know? Thank you for your patience with me, when my output is nearly nil haha.
Yikes.
I figured I would use the lunar new year as an excuse to post a journal and update people. It's a mixed bag - honestly, my life anthem is the chorus from Tubthumping and I wish I didn't mean that as much as I do.
Things seem to settle and then shit gets stupid again, and this last year kicked me in the teeth.
My dad has been diagnosed with terminal cancer. It's pretty world shaking and honestly scary. I've taken him to immunotherapy and chemo, and unfortunately A&E more than once. We aren't sure how long he has but the doctors are clear it is palliative care. The original prognosis was 1 year. We are trying to make the most of the time we have and are going through legal processes so I have power of attorney along with my stepmum and will be the executor of his will.
Whilst we've been dealing with this, my partner lost his job last year as the company he worked for went under. 8 Months of unemployment put a lot of financial pressure on me, but thankfully he has now got a job and is back to having a regular paycheque.
Surprising nobody I am sure, I have struggled with my mental health these last 7/8 months.
While not in the pits of it anymore, I am not as resilient at the moment as I would normally consider myself. It's kinda why I have dipped out everywhere.
With all this going on, I have been trying to think of things in terms of opportunities for practicing gratitude. I am grateful I have a family I love, despite all its complications. I am grateful I have a career that has kept us fed with a roof over our heads, even with unplanned expenses from car repairs! I am grateful to my friends who have checked up on me and also let me have space when I have wanted it.
I am grateful that I have art as a distraction and outlet, so in turn I am grateful for you.
While I haven't shared a lot of art recently, I do have a personal piece I am working on that I am hoping will be finished soon - it is taking me ages haha! I have to take it easy because of RSI. Outside of digital art I have experimented with sourdough bread making (my starter is staring at me as I type haha) and I have been making small tufted rugs! And when I don't have the spoons for any of it I have been playing League of Legends as the true cretin I am.
So yeah. That's where I am.
I have thought about making an update for a while, but it's just hard you know? Thank you for your patience with me, when my output is nearly nil haha.
Wishing you all the best Chan