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16 years ago
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The fire burns deep inside me..my body spasms with pain.. But why does everyone keep on passing by me.. The people lie they just keep walking..what is happening..
-Sigh- Well.. Today has been a long day..
I went to school and it's never been this cold in Southern California, well as long as I've been alive..only time it was colder was back when I use to live up in Big Bear, snowed<3.. Doesn't snow down here. I did get home a bit later than usual, I ate lunch..made me feel sick. Then got better.. I have been sneezing constantly though, I hope I don't get sick..I rarley do, but when I do get sick.. It last a long time. I don't want to be around my family right now.. 7people in this damn apartment. Sister and I don't get along at all..I don't consider her my older sister.. She's only 11months older :/ And she isn't even going to graduate on time I bet!! Then theres my great grandma..she has alzheimers..but I am short tempered with her, I try to help her.. Then my uncle..I bet he's the one I get along with the most. Since he's either never home, or comes home eats then sleeps. He's a busy guy.. I share a bedroom with my 13yr old cousin, but like.. lets just say she knows alot more sexual content stuff than me.. >.> Then there's my other cousin, he's my age only a couple months younger, he annoys me sometimes..I try not to contact him. Just ugh.. I wish people who were actually like me I could hang around with. Seriously its like.. I'm the smarter one (technically in my household)..But I listen weird music..not even the same as normal teens.. I also have a laptop..I hate myspace/facebook etc.. I draw, and I like anime and animals etc.. I do have real life friends, I love them hehe.. Made 2 new friends this year.. I just can't hang with them much this year, since I don't eat lunch with them anymore, since my grandma makes me go home RIGHT as lunch starts. :[ THEN today when I got home.. my mother called..I don't want to talk to her.. I never lived with her :/ nor my dad..but I was forced to go to my half-brothers 8th b-day.. It was horrible that was like.. 4months ago. Well she called and ugh.. my brother came to visit (he's 30) and he answers the phone..he says "Oh hey mom, how are you....(etc..) Haha, well let me let Victoria talk to you." I was soo pissed!! I told him before I want nothing to do with her...she isn't a mother to me..she called me a mistake..:/ I don't know how people put up with her.. My 3 brothers and my sis just ugh..forgave her!? :[.. I just hate all this stuff.. I keep losing things or people.. now I'm ranting
I'm so sorry guys :[ I didn't mean to rant this out but I know..no one will read this..no one that I know will actually speak speak to me.. See you guys..