If you read my last journal, then you'd know I've been considering the possibility of "quitting". Upon further reflection, I felt that was a bit rash of me. I still want to keep at it, but this doesn't change the fact that you shouldn't expect much in the way of consistency.

Especially not now, considering all that's currently going on in my life. Expecting the death of a loved one real soon, and I've no idea how much the fallout of her passing will affect me. Mentally, it's definitely going to worsen my already severe depression.

Financially? Well, that I'm still unsure of. Even if I weren't suffering from crippling depression, my output would still be in the gutter. Because I'm going to need to prioritize finding an actual job.

Well, here's hoping I don't wind up dead in a ditch. I don't have much faith in myself, but I'm at least going to try. Mom would want/expect that of me, and I'm loathe to let her down.

Also! I can't trust Oda for shit, so I'm more motivated than ever before to return to my "Shuffle Piece!" series of fan-fiction. I would encourage all other Carrot fans do the same, and start their own AUs. I'm too much of a weirdo/degenerate to write anything "normal", so I'd love it if the less freaky Carrot fans could help me out in compiling more stories centered around her.