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Things are falling apart... [personal rant]
a year ago
I really don't have words to express how apprehensive\desperate I am right now
I've been in poor health [sinusitis] these last few days, my boyfriend was fired because he injured his leg after spending hours without rest [the fault of the company that didn't provide the uniform], I'm not able to continue my treatment to receive my rights as an autistic person and Now last night I just received the news that my grandfather contracted Covid while he was working...
Honestly, I no longer know how to stay optimistic and think that everything will be fine and with the cliché that "just think about good things that will happen".
It's hard to stay hopeful when out of nowhere you get punched in the face with this terrible reality, it starts to open up gaps for me to start questioning that I'm not doing enough or right.
I know that I am trying hard and even going so far as to give up the characters that I created with so much care to have extra money and pay the bills... but clearly that isn't enough.
I really don't know what to think and just like that everything starts to crumble like a sandcastle and there's nothing that can be done to stop it.
I'm not a religious person but despite that I believe that benevolence and evil exist
and the saying that "nothing can get worse" is wrong... everything can always get worse
Sometimes I reread my old reports and think "wow, how did I get through that? and look where I am today..." but it's incredible how life takes a turn and out of nowhere when you roll the D20 dice you fall into 1, and deep down I want to believe that this is just a difficult moment and that it will pass, after all, life is a constant ordeal I know that, but the way I am now I feel like an ant being crushed by a giant
I don't know where I'm going with this, or what kind of solution can be achieved
but I'll probably lower art prices to get more demand and have more money in the next few days [I'll give you more information soon]
If you want to support with any amount I have a kofi too > https://ko-fi.com/devyshire
In any case, thank you for reading my rant.
I've been in poor health [sinusitis] these last few days, my boyfriend was fired because he injured his leg after spending hours without rest [the fault of the company that didn't provide the uniform], I'm not able to continue my treatment to receive my rights as an autistic person and Now last night I just received the news that my grandfather contracted Covid while he was working...
Honestly, I no longer know how to stay optimistic and think that everything will be fine and with the cliché that "just think about good things that will happen".
It's hard to stay hopeful when out of nowhere you get punched in the face with this terrible reality, it starts to open up gaps for me to start questioning that I'm not doing enough or right.
I know that I am trying hard and even going so far as to give up the characters that I created with so much care to have extra money and pay the bills... but clearly that isn't enough.
I really don't know what to think and just like that everything starts to crumble like a sandcastle and there's nothing that can be done to stop it.
I'm not a religious person but despite that I believe that benevolence and evil exist
and the saying that "nothing can get worse" is wrong... everything can always get worse
Sometimes I reread my old reports and think "wow, how did I get through that? and look where I am today..." but it's incredible how life takes a turn and out of nowhere when you roll the D20 dice you fall into 1, and deep down I want to believe that this is just a difficult moment and that it will pass, after all, life is a constant ordeal I know that, but the way I am now I feel like an ant being crushed by a giant
I don't know where I'm going with this, or what kind of solution can be achieved
but I'll probably lower art prices to get more demand and have more money in the next few days [I'll give you more information soon]
If you want to support with any amount I have a kofi too > https://ko-fi.com/devyshire
In any case, thank you for reading my rant.
SteelQuill21
~steelquill21
I still believe in you and your art, and I want you to know that I'm never gonna stop supporting you! Never ever! Don't give up!
