Morning everyone. Its no mistake that things have not been well for me as of lately from all aspects such as health, finances, losses of many sorts, and just stresses of life that are making things harder long term.

It's been weighing heavily on my mind of what I should do, and believe me the thoughts are scary especially since I haven't had the motivation or confidence to try and push forward.

The situation has gotten to me to the point I lost 15 pounds off my previous weight, and I am finding myself extremely sore in my joints as I wake up every day now.

Needless to say life has taken its toll on me, and it's stressing me out to the point I am not feeling like my chipper self anymore.

It sucks no doubt and I wish I had a resolve moving forward. The part that has been scaring me the most is giving up on what I love and enjoy doing just to try and progress my life especially in the event something does happen to my parents.

I may not be expressive with my inner feelings as much cause I don't want to be a drama type nor do I want to be a burden on others. It's just part of who I am as an introvert.

I'm sorry if this is such a downer moment for some, but I just want this pain to stop now. I've had so much thrown at my face now and I just want some solace and peace in my life again.