it's more than often a symptom of depression to not feel normally.

This. Focus on yourself for a while. Look for things that bring you joy and passion, art, music, or even just a long walk on a quiet morning. It helps.

i'm afraid nothing brings me relief, satisfaction or joy these days. if i somehow by the act of god find things like this, they get ruined or drained very fast, and i have no control over it

It won't change all at once. It's a process, often a long process. Bad days and setbacks are normal.

Look for videos on YT and such for guided mediations and Stoicism. Even Zen meditations and guiding's. It takes time, practice, and patience with yourself.

Remember, you're worth the effort! Hang in there.

i'm clinically depressed. was on the prescription for a while, it didn't work

From what I've seen, it can take some time to find the right meds that work with your depression.

I think being unmedicated is probably not a good idea if you need it.

i guess i should visit theraphist again. this is not getting easier. thanks

Yes, it's not a good symptom
Of something like depression for example

kinda feel the same, only feel the scorching jealousy of watching peoples live a life of meaning

I have experienced anhedonia in the past. Depending on the cause, it can require medication, therapy, and/or lifestyle changes to treat. Have you ever been tested for hypothyroidism, for example?

no i didn't. don't know about anhedonia, consuming has almost nonexistent effects

Often yup. I've had to deal with such depressive apathy many times in my life and there is no sure fire escape. I've tried reaching out and making new friendships and people chat for a while then pull away once their curiosity is sated. I've tried getting closer to family. I've tried switching jobs. In the end it's just something I've adapted to accept and keep trudging on.

Ya I used to feel the same. The worst part was I'd think back and I just couldn't think back to any times where I was happy. It was almost like I had forgotten what happiness was because all my memories of the past were either bad ones or good ones I recalled or thought of in a bad light. What got me out of it is just thinking of one thing that made me happy each day. Even if the day is completely shitty but like, idk, my toast was like perfectly browned in the morning then I'd just cling to that one thing for the rest of the day. Gradually I remembered more and more happy things. That worked for me, safest bet though is therapy. Just always remember that things will get better.

Relatable af. Depression does this to ya. I feel negative emotions just a bit, but little to no positive ones. Therapy helps.

in my experience it sometimes comes down to choice

i have been in a state of lack of emotion and joy for a long time

but then i took the choice of having joy and fun with things i really didnt but it was all about CREATING the feeling instead of getting it since i didnt get it from anything i did

and i kept doing it until it started working
kinda like training a muscle you never used so it grew weak

Wishing you the best. Don't be afraid to reach out. We got your back.

I felt like that before I realized I was trans

Yeah, I feel the same. Which is weird to say, considering it's not really 'feeling'. I don't really get excited about stuff like I see some people do, or even something simple like vibing to a song, I just feel nothing. Is it like that for you?

yes. it's all gray colored. no excitement, no inspiration, no eagerness, no spark, no burning passion or hyperfixation, no fire or cold inside. memories, thoughts and deeds are tasteless and don't have volume. i'm obviously not a kid anymore with fresh, growing neurons and brainmatter, but this empty existence doesn't worth a damn

Yeah, I'm not sure what causes it or how to change it. I'll let you know if I figure anything out, but at the moment I simply have accepted the apathy.

Stimulating yourself with your interests can help, I think. There are bound to be things you still want to do, but it's hard to do these things without it feeling like a job. Variety can help with that, but I think the biggest thing for me is to just focus on the little things.

Pay a great deal of attention to the pleasant sight you see on a walk, or the movie night with friends or the achievement/challenge you finished in a game, or something that might have happened in a book you read. Life doesn't have to be about grand achievements and constantly pushing for more.