Many of the best people don't.

Don't put yourself down.

A bouba shaped peg in a world full of square holes. I think the internet has done wonders to help people who otherwise couldn't find a place to connect, but at the same time it's far from a panacea.

For what it's worth, I hope one day you find your tribe.

Pretty sure we are quite different, but in this I relate to you. The isolation and trauma, depression, all of it.
it's as if the world and you are on different frequency, isn't it, trying to communicate but it seems somehow mute, and the other way around too. The human world seems insane and overwhelming. Even those who are nice to be with seem unable to really get through into the lonely core.

You cannot be blamed for negativity, such sense of isolation is maddening, I know from experience. I figured, the masks lead me into loneliness because the world is deceived by me, I should give up on looking for my place, as it doesn't exist - so I must create it, even if it's very difficult. The tasks seem unbelievable and hard to reach, but there isn't really any other way I can see.

I can't be sure that it will work but it makes sense to me, to shed the masks with hope that exposing the truth will bring one closer to the rightful spot with the right people and circumstances, of course it will cut off many redundant pieces of life as well, what can burn must burn but wisdom is necessary to tell which is which - what to let go of and what to cultivate.

Did we get to choose to end up like this? in this hole far away from the sun
Do not accept your fault, I know it's ruinous to feel like this, like burden and something unintentional - a mistake, but it is not your fault, because that's how the insane world tries to break you

I think at least one of these people who wrote that about you not posting visual art might have thought that it receives less attention and that's why it's less worthy of uploading. But maybe they actually meant it as an insult. I think that no matter what was the case with that it was stupid and didn't make sense to write that. It's worthy of being posted and actually has people who read it! I enjoyed very much reading your things for example and a lot of other people have too, even if not everyone wrote a comment afterwards.

Good luck with everything. Also in my opinion you aren't an asshole at all. I never saw you write completely anything that would make me think you are one and if you were an asshole it would come out at some point.

You cannot really be a bad person if you have the self awareness to even consider your place in the world and how you affect other people.

The fact that you care is in an of itself proof that you're far from an asshole.

Depression for sure is a selfish disease, it makes you hyper aware of yourself which is easily interpreted as narcissistic or uncaring. But the pain becomes a bit of an echo chamber that gets louder and louder to you and it's hard for everyone else to understand. Thank you for expressing your pain and giving us a chance to respond to it.

Just happened upon your page from a shout somewhere else, and glanced down your journals.

FA is one of the few art sites which allow written word submissions. (I believe SoFurry is the other, possibly DA, but with their issues, not sure how many do anymore.) It's by design that it did, all that time ago. Use it for that without concern for those who'd say not to bother. Upload for your own enjoyment if nobody else's.

Feel better soon, little robot creature!