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not doing too well
a year ago
Heeheeheeheeeheeheeheeheee....... Welcome....... I see you have found this raptor's den........ Now Listen to what I have to say....... My mental health has really taken a beating this week and quite frankly idk what to do at this point.
I don't even *really* know what's causing it. Things as a whole are going well, I'm getting TONS of stuff done on my projects and organizing myself and I'm honestly in much better shape on that front than I think I've ever been.
I'm not *really* feeling overwhelmed by my online life/having too many friends to keep up with/etc. I've done a lot of work to find a balance point for myself where I feel comfy and i feel like I can handle everything reasonably well.
I think if I had to guess, it's all the irl stuff and confronting the big changes in my life and so on, that's causing it.
Weekdays are basically completely wasted days because I'm basically busy from 10am to 6 pm every single day unless I'm off work or have a short shift. Combine that with other irl obligations and frankly, I just don't have time to be around really at all during the week. It really wears me down and it's been driving me nuts here lately.
I'm to the point where I'm having to consider ditching a lot of online spaces and friends I really don't WANT to have to leave, simply because I just do NOT have time anymore. I can't even bring myself to dm some of the people I really wanna chat with cuz it's been a while, for fear that I'll get busy again and then we won't chat again for a month or more. I really HATE being that kind of friend n' I wanna be able to hang out with more of my friends but I just simply don't have time.
I don't honestly know what I'm gonna do at this point. I'm not really overwhelming myself and I don't feel like I have too many friends and communities to handle. I just feel like I don't have time for anything or anyone anymore.
And it really makes me sad.
All I can do is keep pushin' forward tho, I guess.
I don't even *really* know what's causing it. Things as a whole are going well, I'm getting TONS of stuff done on my projects and organizing myself and I'm honestly in much better shape on that front than I think I've ever been.
I'm not *really* feeling overwhelmed by my online life/having too many friends to keep up with/etc. I've done a lot of work to find a balance point for myself where I feel comfy and i feel like I can handle everything reasonably well.
I think if I had to guess, it's all the irl stuff and confronting the big changes in my life and so on, that's causing it.
Weekdays are basically completely wasted days because I'm basically busy from 10am to 6 pm every single day unless I'm off work or have a short shift. Combine that with other irl obligations and frankly, I just don't have time to be around really at all during the week. It really wears me down and it's been driving me nuts here lately.
I'm to the point where I'm having to consider ditching a lot of online spaces and friends I really don't WANT to have to leave, simply because I just do NOT have time anymore. I can't even bring myself to dm some of the people I really wanna chat with cuz it's been a while, for fear that I'll get busy again and then we won't chat again for a month or more. I really HATE being that kind of friend n' I wanna be able to hang out with more of my friends but I just simply don't have time.
I don't honestly know what I'm gonna do at this point. I'm not really overwhelming myself and I don't feel like I have too many friends and communities to handle. I just feel like I don't have time for anything or anyone anymore.
And it really makes me sad.
All I can do is keep pushin' forward tho, I guess.
Please do not consider sourself anyone's burden just because you get busy with daily duties, home duties and the sorts. If people love you, they will show you consideration and understanding.
And even if you are not able to do all the things you like, at least exchanging every now and then is never wrong, even if you might feel that way. Just try to signal people that it would be nice if they could also contact you back every now and then just like you do.
I think that writing this journal itself is a good way to help your mental health there. In general taking those emotions and working through them by taking some time to digest all your thoughts, either by noting it all down, making plans and even simply resting properly can give you ways to vent there. Try to think of what could be the most fun to share with someone you care a lot about and just hypothetically make some plans and arrangements for whenever you could get some quality time together.
Reminiscing and imagining through it all can help you ease up a bit. Your thoughts being with your friends and loved ones counts and means a lot after all, and it's something you deserve the praise for.
So very sorry, I want to be there for you