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a year ago
Hey there. It’s been quite a while since I’ve made a new journal lmao
This one will be a (not-so) small shitpost.
For some context: I draw because I like drawing.
Had to think, think for quite a long time about my constant experiments with my drawing style, different fanarts and themes, like, sexy girls? A huge yes. Fanarts? Triple yes! A random style experiment? – I’m down for anything. Maybe one day I’ll go try to imitate renaissance artists’ style, who knows, lmao. Because it’s fun! And I love doing fun things!
Or maybe it was fun. Because for last couple of months it does make me feel insecure. On one hand: it’s a nice skill to adapt&mimic anything, it’s a nice feature(or so I thought), plus who is going to make me content if I don’t? – and on the other? On the other hand it is that I’m texting this because it literally made me tear up: my galleries look like a total mess of everything at once(which I haven’t seen from other artists for ages), my watchers(new, especially) don’t know what to expect, and hey, why would anyone want to look at your random hyperfixations, people did not subscribe for this(so please shut the fuck up and keep your shit to yourself).
What the literal fuck am I? Am I even worth anything? Does anyone even want to look at the things I do? Why do I keep doing it?
I feel like I’m a nuisance who’s boring everyone. I feel like I force people to look at something that they’re not interested in. I feel that no one really wants this and there’s no point in posting anything except commissions, that I should keep my shit to myself only(and I already have literal tons of things I drew within these years which aren’t even posted anywhere). Well, here’s reality: I’d like to make money with my favorite activity. With my art. Bc everyone needs money – everyone heard that story, I don’t want to repeat it all over again. But to make money with your art you should have a distinct art style to be recognized. To be a brand.
And… yea, I fucked up completely.
Well, there is a solution: to keep several accounts(I’ve seen people doing this) for different submissions, but I simply don’t want to go that way, for me it’s uncomfortable. But if I leave it as it is – read the article above again. Briefly, - don’t have an idea about what to do or where to go with my style and all. Plus, for me it feels kinda wrong to feel guilty and keep quiet about the things that I like: it’s a huge part of me, after all! I love those things with my whole heart, I treasure them! So maybe if I can’t sit on two chairs, I can lay down on three, who knows. Maybe it’s not that bad. Anyways, just ignore this post, I only wanted to speak out a bit. But if you read it anyways – thank you. I appreciate it.
I wish I was more stable and it didn’t bother neither me nor any of my watchers.
This one will be a (not-so) small shitpost.
For some context: I draw because I like drawing.
Had to think, think for quite a long time about my constant experiments with my drawing style, different fanarts and themes, like, sexy girls? A huge yes. Fanarts? Triple yes! A random style experiment? – I’m down for anything. Maybe one day I’ll go try to imitate renaissance artists’ style, who knows, lmao. Because it’s fun! And I love doing fun things!
Or maybe it was fun. Because for last couple of months it does make me feel insecure. On one hand: it’s a nice skill to adapt&mimic anything, it’s a nice feature(or so I thought), plus who is going to make me content if I don’t? – and on the other? On the other hand it is that I’m texting this because it literally made me tear up: my galleries look like a total mess of everything at once(which I haven’t seen from other artists for ages), my watchers(new, especially) don’t know what to expect, and hey, why would anyone want to look at your random hyperfixations, people did not subscribe for this(so please shut the fuck up and keep your shit to yourself).
What the literal fuck am I? Am I even worth anything? Does anyone even want to look at the things I do? Why do I keep doing it?
I feel like I’m a nuisance who’s boring everyone. I feel like I force people to look at something that they’re not interested in. I feel that no one really wants this and there’s no point in posting anything except commissions, that I should keep my shit to myself only(and I already have literal tons of things I drew within these years which aren’t even posted anywhere). Well, here’s reality: I’d like to make money with my favorite activity. With my art. Bc everyone needs money – everyone heard that story, I don’t want to repeat it all over again. But to make money with your art you should have a distinct art style to be recognized. To be a brand.
And… yea, I fucked up completely.
Well, there is a solution: to keep several accounts(I’ve seen people doing this) for different submissions, but I simply don’t want to go that way, for me it’s uncomfortable. But if I leave it as it is – read the article above again. Briefly, - don’t have an idea about what to do or where to go with my style and all. Plus, for me it feels kinda wrong to feel guilty and keep quiet about the things that I like: it’s a huge part of me, after all! I love those things with my whole heart, I treasure them! So maybe if I can’t sit on two chairs, I can lay down on three, who knows. Maybe it’s not that bad. Anyways, just ignore this post, I only wanted to speak out a bit. But if you read it anyways – thank you. I appreciate it.
I wish I was more stable and it didn’t bother neither me nor any of my watchers.
their
tears
sustain
me.
But for real though, a style is just a name for all the mistakes that you can't stop making. Draw what's in your heart, share it with the world, and the people who appreciate it will find you and love you for it.
Personally, I like your work overall and I wish that you continue what you're doing, especially if you say that you love drawing. With hobby, it's good to look out for challenges, but it also should be comfortable for a person doing it. If you want a break, that's perfectly understandable.
I wish you'll eventually solve this issue :)
Take care and keep drawing!!
I personally think my own gallery is a mess, but drawing whatever sparks me brings me joy so I keep at it ;w; It's personal belief, but I think anything that you genuinely make will still attract people to you, and the right ones will love your works regardless of the subject you draw
As for myself I always absolutely adore seeing the variety and I think it's fun to never know what to expect! It's like a surprise box and either way it's always your work and your time and dedication I appreciate and enjoy looking at
I thinks it's refreshing and absolutely nice to see a variety of content, especially since it displays how much you can do and create and that you're not bond to anything so to speak, I really enjoy it