sorry for swearing but fucking fuck
i wasn't happy&healthy, i was manic. My family, my friends, my groupmates, my roommates, everybody was telling it to me the last 3 weeks. I have zero criticism to this condition, telling that they don't understand how much of a better person I am now. Spoiler: I am NOT.

I made a pile of stupid decisions, like giving up my exams, changing profession, piercing angel fangs BY MYSELF WITHOUT ANESTHESIA WTF, dying my hair lilac, spending all of the money I saved for future and even more. I had no sleep at all without being tired, and it goes with being very productive in drawing, making videos and physical activity (dancing 10h a day is INSANE for my level). Of course, I had a rapid speech, people rarely managed to understand my words. Because of no sleep I hurt my eyes again but it seems to be tolerable. And, surely, I've been taking my meds haphazardly.

I guess I have to visit the psych once again :) I hope it happens soon, I wasn't planning for this, but I have to find the time. It doesn't affect drawing schedule, just venting on the journals once again haha