I've completely lost all motivation to carry on with this shit now. After saying things i now regret and seeing everyone i want to hang out with reject me like the plague on resonite, and life carrying on as normal on the telegram charts i used to chat in; I'm sitting here and thinking what's the point? I've got one thing i go to on resonite and enjoy and that's it, I barely even write any more and there's only a handful of people i still talk to regularly.

I'm debating whether or not anyone would really miss me in the fandom, because with what happened last month at work, only my work colleagues and immediate family were there to support me. This was the one time i don't feel selfish in needing validation and told i matter to someone else and instead i get shit for not hanging out with people enough, and then more shit on top of that for saying something i now regret. So what's the point? I've got people who care about me and it's not from them.