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a year ago
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• Other art socials (not there? not me) • Talking to the void again; that's one of the things I miss the most about the old FA (and Deviantart too), the engangement, people would comment on art and journals and provide a piece of their mind, talk about what a certain piece made them feel or just engage in general when it came to journals and interactions with others.
I used to post a lot of journals before (this is not my first account), as you may have noticed my updates are rare now, not because I have nothing to say, but because nobody cares enough to comment and I'm constantly talking to a wall.
This also affects my art, as "drawing for myself" and "drawing out of love" already got old and doesn't pay the bills lol.
But... if there's something else I miss too is the enviroment; the old internet was no perfect by any means, but do you remember the time where people weren't at each other's throats over things that didn't matter? (such as fictional characters and problematic fiction, and agreeing to disagreeing was a general consensus instead of ruining people's fucking lives over something that doesn't exist and doing mental gymnastics to create a problem that isn't there?), or when art thievery wasn't as blatant and prevalent?
I used to be someone who loved to upload HQ art for anyone to download and enjoy, but since the uprise of IA, and how some people have been behaving, the blatant impersonation I have been a victim of multiple times (Most recent: https://www.deviantart.com/rikudou-.....u32-1046416087) and the difficulty of making others comply to my TOS due to the lack of effective international legislations have turned me into someone that sees sharing my art as a risk and even as a chore. There's literally no reason for me to post, I only do it out of habit, because nobody shows me they care. Or maybe... 2 or 3 people, which I appreciate.
I have given up on commissions; I can't make a penny out of this, I have been drawing for way longer than I originally thought, for around 17 years. That's a lot of time and I had plenty of advice and tried milliards of strategies and never succeeded, my numbers speak for themselves, I don't need to talk about my wallet. This has turned me into a bitter individual, I must admit; moreso after seeing people stealing and profitting off of MY work while I, the creator, never managed to count on for financial support. I can't even count on commissions to buy a damn burger, but they sell 20 USD T-Shirts with my OC slapped on it? Have some decency. (This happened years ago).
Not only does all of this factor in me not drawing, also has turned my gallery into a showcase of watermarks; people complaining about them only irks me, I don't like using them, but what other choice do I have after being disrespected, stolen from and even impersonated over and over again throughout the years with 0 benefit or growth whatsoever? I don't care who disagrees, the internet is full of wonderful art for you to enjoy and save, go enjoy it, and let me protect my own, my art being unwatermarked never reported me any benefits either.
I have had to start using Glaze on everything I upload. Glaze isn't perfect, not only does it distort the pieces if I want an average level of protection it also takes hours to render. Gone is the age in which I finished a drawing and enabled the HD download button for the world, what have we come to.
I fear for the future of humanity as a whole and not only for the future of human artists; I have assumed that my art has some type of curse and will never bring me money, or an audience, I'm done seeking advice, I even got it from AAA industry pros; I'm done; I guess I just wanted to vent, since nobody will read this anyways.
PS- Negative or passive agressive comments will get you booted, I have noticed that being nasty became a trend instead of ignoring something you don't vibe with, that doesn't fly here, have manners.
I used to post a lot of journals before (this is not my first account), as you may have noticed my updates are rare now, not because I have nothing to say, but because nobody cares enough to comment and I'm constantly talking to a wall.
This also affects my art, as "drawing for myself" and "drawing out of love" already got old and doesn't pay the bills lol.
But... if there's something else I miss too is the enviroment; the old internet was no perfect by any means, but do you remember the time where people weren't at each other's throats over things that didn't matter? (such as fictional characters and problematic fiction, and agreeing to disagreeing was a general consensus instead of ruining people's fucking lives over something that doesn't exist and doing mental gymnastics to create a problem that isn't there?), or when art thievery wasn't as blatant and prevalent?
I used to be someone who loved to upload HQ art for anyone to download and enjoy, but since the uprise of IA, and how some people have been behaving, the blatant impersonation I have been a victim of multiple times (Most recent: https://www.deviantart.com/rikudou-.....u32-1046416087) and the difficulty of making others comply to my TOS due to the lack of effective international legislations have turned me into someone that sees sharing my art as a risk and even as a chore. There's literally no reason for me to post, I only do it out of habit, because nobody shows me they care. Or maybe... 2 or 3 people, which I appreciate.
I have given up on commissions; I can't make a penny out of this, I have been drawing for way longer than I originally thought, for around 17 years. That's a lot of time and I had plenty of advice and tried milliards of strategies and never succeeded, my numbers speak for themselves, I don't need to talk about my wallet. This has turned me into a bitter individual, I must admit; moreso after seeing people stealing and profitting off of MY work while I, the creator, never managed to count on for financial support. I can't even count on commissions to buy a damn burger, but they sell 20 USD T-Shirts with my OC slapped on it? Have some decency. (This happened years ago).
Not only does all of this factor in me not drawing, also has turned my gallery into a showcase of watermarks; people complaining about them only irks me, I don't like using them, but what other choice do I have after being disrespected, stolen from and even impersonated over and over again throughout the years with 0 benefit or growth whatsoever? I don't care who disagrees, the internet is full of wonderful art for you to enjoy and save, go enjoy it, and let me protect my own, my art being unwatermarked never reported me any benefits either.
I have had to start using Glaze on everything I upload. Glaze isn't perfect, not only does it distort the pieces if I want an average level of protection it also takes hours to render. Gone is the age in which I finished a drawing and enabled the HD download button for the world, what have we come to.
I fear for the future of humanity as a whole and not only for the future of human artists; I have assumed that my art has some type of curse and will never bring me money, or an audience, I'm done seeking advice, I even got it from AAA industry pros; I'm done; I guess I just wanted to vent, since nobody will read this anyways.
PS- Negative or passive agressive comments will get you booted, I have noticed that being nasty became a trend instead of ignoring something you don't vibe with, that doesn't fly here, have manners.
And the agressiveness of the people on the internet, making me put my hands in front of me after every single statement because I've been attacked for asking for the context of a post or things like that; or if I ask a question about a function on a site people come to my profile and find out I'm a proshipper and call me a pedophile (monsters I have been a fucking victim of IRL and I know a bit more than them, I mean, 6 years getting abused would give me some experience on the matter but idk), like, not a trace of a functional brain inside those heads; no amount of disclaimers work against people who have no brain cells; what's the point of starting shit out of nowhere, dear lord I hate people lol
On the other hand however it would also mean that creative people wouldn’t be able to spread their good ideas. We need to get the control of humanity in the hands of people who actually want to get us into a better future, remove the stuff that is hindering us, or is useless like Ai art. It will need a full restructuring of everything we know if that did happen. And change is terrifying.
We are a reactionary species instead of action. And I don’t have enough faith in humanity to trust them to do what is necessary for human advancement. Like what you said about braincells, I think a period of basically no social media at all for a few years would be productive.
I wish that would happen, sadly our best interest would cost them money, money they won't be able to spend on 10 lifetimes; the hoarding of wealth is something I'll never understand (I come from a super rich family, they even have private islands, but they disowned me and destroyed my life so there's that lol) and I will never understand. I get it wanting to have enough for yourself and maybe your children and so, but anything beyond that is nonsense to me.
Social media was a mistake, at least engineered the way it is. Investors propagating puritanism, censorship and warping the minds of the younger generations to make them believe such and such content are "illegal" and worth bullying innocent people over. Sickening.