Hello all. In my last journal you could see that i was pretty ill and because of that i had severe side effects. Because of medication my allergy worsened and i had troubles with my daily life. Because of medications and that side effects i had trouble with sleep and had arrhythmia problems. I couldn't fall asleep well and also couldn't wake up after finally falling asleep. My body couldn't work well and so i struggled mentally and physically. I fell into apathy and become depressed. I knew that i need to work at least to buy my "every day" meds but because of condition it was really hard. I also got caught up with personal problems and for me it was mentally hard with my condition. I couldn't eat well. sleep well and function well. It was hard to get up and start to do at least anything. So i disappeared a bit and really delayed some work that i needed to do. I felt shame and helplessness. I am sorry for it and that i may be let you down or you may feeling bad because of the waiting so long. I just can't afford to refund even if i really want to do it. Sorry.
In conclusion, just recently i started to use tablet again. I am drawing and sketching as i can at least a bit. Also i finally started trying to draw for myself. I rarely do it and now i am feeling better with creating and experimenting for myself. I am little by little returning to my normal life. I started to sleep much better than before and i am eating well too. The food once again started to be delicious and i started to like what i do once again too. I just needed a bit of time and i am really grateful for your golden patience. I will eventually return to my normal pace and every day will be fruitful. I will soon post some of my "therapy" works and will fulfill my promises. And of course will return to bring you joy with my art. Thank you so much and thank you for reading this.